.° siara °.

General

my existence can resume itself with: music, writing, editing, dancing, my family, my friends, and my self-love🎀
writing:i'm currently writing a story that i started in 2022, and even though you might say it has been a while since i've started and that i must reach the end, not at all!!!! to be fair i don't even have the outline of it, all i do is write the passages that i like, think "hmm that will be around the middle" and move on to another one 😃 no for real i do have an outline but it's just really complicated and there are some passages that i can't even fit in the story soooo ig i'm just writing for fun (i don't plan on really publishing it) HOWEVER i am the absolute happiest when i write and i live for my characters and i just love them so so much omggggg
editing:i do editing a lot but it's mostly for fun, i did a lyric video of club classics by charli xcx feat bb trickz though and i might post it on my youtube page heheh!
dancing: i dance almost EVERY DAY, i absolutely love dancing, i mostly do kpop covers and have already attended random dance public of kpop; what is crazy is that when i started dancing (i started with Easy by Stray Kids which is their HARDEST DANCE OMAGAD) i was really just copying the movements of the members but now i've improved so much that i'm really proud of myself, it has proved me that by training little by little every day and by giving my all into something i like, i can actually improve so much (like my flexibility, my endurance, my overall strength has improved so much!!) so whatever makes you happy and free, do it and you'll feel so much benefit from it!!
my self-love: i don't actually think that it exist a label for that but i think i might be going with myself??? like i legit cannot see myself going out with anyone at the moment (though i'm pansexual still) and i simply love myself so much and spend so much time with myself that i've achieve a such strong connection to be able to say that i love myself :3 i even kind of have a love birthday with myself (25th of may; so whenever this day comes, think about all the love of the world and spread love to people around you💕)

except that i'm just really a silly, energetic yet tired, funny and colourful person so don't hesitate to send a dm!!! i might take some time to answer because i'm not so active :/

Music

i would rather go blind than deaf and i think this kind of sumps up my relationship with music lol

Movies

i am the WORST for watching series, i get too immersed into it and just get scared of what's going to happen so i postpone my watching
(and on top of that i do many things at night and often don't take the time to watch a full episode, except if i plan on not sleeping more than 3h sooooo) however i am (supposed to be) currently watching a BL called only friends (yes i started BLs with this one) (yes it is NOT the most chill one to start with) and i loveeee it (pls don't spoil me but RAYSAND FOREVER)

Television

i watch the news every day which gives me crippling anxiety because of the fucked up state of the world but heyyy at least the sky is blue ig

Books

okay so surprisingly i really like theatre plays? one of my favourite books is Juste la fin du monde (i will evoke it later) which is a french play of the 90s; i had to read it for my huge french exam in high school and for no reason i realllllly liked it! i literally fell in love with the story and even more with the writing (it's so original); xavier nolan made a movie about the play and obviously it's one of my favourite movies 🫡 (even though the first time i watched it it was my french teacher who made us watch it and i thought THAT MOVIE IS AWFUL (because the characters were screaming and i hated ittttt) but yea safe to say that i bought the dvd and knows some scene by heart and i have a poster of the movie in my room and even went to a performance of it) another one is also a theatre play we had to read at school (i'm very much of a school person), which is called « Art » (yes the inverted commas are included in the title lol); what i love isn't especially the plot (though now i like it) it was the 72 LINES OF TIRADE of one character that i learnt by heart and can still recite today lol (i think i'm autistic (i am))

Heroes

absolutely no idea
i'm joking (that's not funny sorry (i might be (am) autistic so ^^)
i think (i'm saying i think because i've just started thinking about it so may add some alter) that my role models are:

(🥁 🥁 🥁 🥁)

stray kids: these guys are absolute fire and they put all their passion and love into their music, which i find most impressive and inspiring

gaspard ulliel: he was a french actor and the main character of the theatre play & movie i like the most Juste la fin du monde; his acting is just incredible but he died in 2022 (i think) so i will surely (obviously) not see him in any other movies :(

(i surely have many others but i'll update later :P)

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