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~ my likes, obsessions & weird lil joys ~

• catscats. all cats. evil cats. glitch cats. cosmic cats. especially the ones that stare at walls for no reason
• weird media old web junk, shiny gifs, weird screencaps, pngs with no context
• collecting old toys, broken CDs, vaporwave trash, souls (jk… unless?), broken tech, old graphics, dead links, vibes
• animanga that either heals me or emotionally destroys me
• HTML + code (i talk to my CSS like it’s alive) (i hand-code my own madness)
• video editing like i’m making an AMV for a forgotten anime
• 3D modeling & game dev... mostly making things that glitch also still leaerning nnenee
• learning new stuff i’ll get obsessed with for 3 days straight
• creating worlds i never show anyone... just because
• the Vibe™: nostalgic, sparkly, haunted, kinda ee feral

~ music that rewired my brain ~

• Oasis
• PXNDX
• Café Tacvba
• Gorillaz
• The Cardigans
• The Marías
• Mar Argo
• Korn
• Flema
• ESkorbuto

~ movies that live in my subconscious ~

• The Taste of Tea — like a childhood memory that never happened
• Oldboy — every mirror is a weapon
• Perfect Blue — identity breakdown set to pop music
• Hausu — a haunted house possessed by glitter and teeth
• Paprika — dreams on fire, techno-colored
• Enter the Void
• Gummo
• Battle Royale — blood and friendship bracelets <3
• The Virgin Suicides — melancholy in girls
• City of Lost Children — brain soup for sad kids
• Naked Lunch — bugs, typewriters, and opium-coded madness

i like movies that feel like soft static or a violent lullaby.

~ television (aka mental illness on screen) ~

• Yellowjackets — feral girls, trauma, nature horror. yes pls
• You — stalking but make it literary lol (dont worry i dont romatze it)
• Dexter — serial killer with a moral code. hot.
• Hannibal — cooking shows for cannibals + visual poetry
• Euphoria — glitter, spirals, and decisions i cannot defend
• BoJack Horseman — cartoon horse depression but it gets real
• Skins (UK) — chaos, eyeliner, and crying in the bathroom
• The End of the F***ing World — road trip w/ murder & awkward romance
• Black Mirror — i hate technology (but also me)
• Over the Garden Wall — soft horror fairytale for the lost & strange

idk what “television” means but this section is about my beautiful emotional damage

~ books that made me weird on purpose ~

• Fight Club — i am jack’s spiraling identity crisis
• The Secret Garden — childhood trauma but make it botanical
• No Longer Human — too sad to exist, too poetic to stop reading, disconnection in prose, depression in every line

if it’s about alienation, self-destruction, or decaying gardens… i’m already reading it, also there's a few mre but ont wanna make thiz longer tho xd