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"You call it overthinking, I call it foreshadowing."
โ 2008 โ INFJ โ Cardinal Water Sign โ UK โ poLITical โ she/her โ
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โ 18F โ Cursed with like a Modernist poet's existential crisis and a Romantic novelist's perspective on humanity. โ Feel free to message me if you want to be friends, the exception is if you're going to be disrespectful, or if you're under 16 - in which case I will not respond. โ 
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โ Lana Del Rey โ Arctic Monkeys โ The Neighbourhood โ Chase Atlantic โ Cigarettes After Sex โ Florence + The Machine โ BANKS โ Beth McCarthy โ Marina โ Melanie Martinez โ Alicia Keys โ Sia โ Rihanna โ Beyoncรฉ โ Emeli Sandรฉ โ Taylor Swift โ Destinyโs Child โ Britney Spears โ Fall Out Boy โ Twenty One Pilots โ The Libertines โ Hamilton โ Talking Heads โ CORPSE โ Dax โ Eminem โ Jay-Z โ Kanye West โ Hazbin Hotel โ Wu-Tang Clan โ BMTH โ The Weeknd โ Lofi Girl โ Yiruma โ Hans Zimmer โ Ludovico Einaudi โ 
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โ William Shakespeare โ Oscar Wilde โ Sylvia Plath โ Jostein Gaarder โ Charlotte Brontรซ โ Emily Brontรซ โ Sappho โ Mary Shelley โ Lemony Snicket โ Jean Rhys โ Margaret Atwood โ Virginia Woolf โ A. C. Bradley โ Fyodor Dostoevsky โ Aldous Huxley โ Tennessee Williams โ Franz Kafka โ George Orwell โ 
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Television |
โ Editing my SpaceHey at 2am โ 1% Club on TV โ Drawing little stars on everything like a 14th-century monk with undiagnosed ADHD โ Shakespearean villains โ Blue-haired women from Arcane โ Alastor the Radio Demon โ Pointlessly defending fictional characters like they pay my rent โ Writing enemies-to-lovers fanfics for historical figures (Winston Churchill x Charles de Gaulle??) โ That one photo of Freud and Jung looking like theyโre about to drop the most toxic mixtape of 1907 โ PMQs from the late 1990s (for the humour) โ The communist episode of My Little Pony โ Also the film where Twilight Sparkle is a neeky schoolgirl who finally decides to stop letting people treat her like crap, only to be defeated by the * magic of fucking friendship * right when she was about to achieve world domination. #JusticeForMyHomegirlSciTwiโ 
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โ If it has footnotes, existential dread, or someone crying in a library - Iโve probably scribbled in it. โ A load of political biographies (particularly surrounding UK Labour Party from 1997-2010) โ 1984 - George Orwell โ Animal Farm - George Orwell โ Dead Poets Society - Nancy H. Kleinbaum โ The Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger โ Sapiens / Homo Deus - Yuval Noah Harari โ The Handmaidโs Tale - Margaret Atwood โ Jane Eyre - Charlotte Brontรซ โ Wide Sargasso Sea - Jean Rhys โ Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde - Robert Louis Stevenson โ Othello - William Shakespeare (I know it's not really a book but please please ask me about Iago. I have a theory that he was emotionally abused as a child and developed either NPD or CPTSD, which then led him to develop coping mechanisms such as obsession, paranoia, emotional numbing, and both a superiority and inferiority complex. Judge if you want, but I believe Iago needs to be analysed just as deeply as he analyses everyone else.) โ Sophie's World - Jostein Gaarder โ Macbeth - William Shakespeare (annotated in red ofc.) โ A Streetcar Named Desire - Tennessee Williams โ Frankenstein - Mary Shelley โ Wuthering Heights - Emily Brontรซ (most of my annotations was 12 year old me trying to work out which Catherine we're talking about haha) โ To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee โ Coraline - Neil Gaiman โ The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time - Mark Haddon โ Lord of the Flies - William Golding โ 
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โ Those who wear customised Converse possess inherent iconic status โ I believe in noticing. In people, in patterns, in the way someoneโs voice softens when they donโt realise youโre still listening. โ Love is not always romantic - sometimes itโs the act of not looking away when someoneโs unraveling. โ If something hurts, I write it down. If something matters, I underline it. If something breaks me, I memorise it. โ No moment is too small to matter. Especially the ones where no one else was looking. โ I believe in souls touching through words - not for recognition, but because they must. โ When I say I care, I mean that Iโve already built a cathedral of meaning around the thing you thought was fleeting. โ Iโd rather be wrecked by feeling than dulled by performance. โ The mind can be a maze; I just happen to chart mine in poetry and post-it notes. โ If I love you, I will notice everything - even the things you pretend not to feel. Especially those (fuck my perceptive nature lol).โ 
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About me:
โ Devoted wife of Dr Pepper โ DemSoc, and open to civil discussions on that โ Gregor Samsa is a mood โ Sylvia Plath minus Questionable Metaphors equals MOTHER. โ Cursed with overanalysis, blessed with a good coat โ I stan the Dark Academia aesthetic โ Allegedly dresses like "a thirty-year-old English teacher who is trying to be cool" (poetry tote bags, weird belts and Converse...also this is according to my family of teachers lmaoooo) โ
โ Now, I'm going to talk about a knowledge-based subculture largely followed byย people with 0-2 sets of qualifications ๐ค.โ
โ I live in the UK, so naturally my education and interests lean toward a Western framework - but I hate how the Dark Academic community implicitly supports epistemicide. (I know we also glamorise burnout, that's not OK either, message me if you'd like to know why I think this is a lesser issue.) It doesnโt take a PhD in Cultural Studies to realise the entirety of human knowledge didnโt come from dead European men. If youโre a Dark Academic who thinks it didโฆplease actually read the things you tell people youโve read - and annotate them for substance, not just style. Like, I'm chill if you don't know something...it's only if you are trying to sound "edgy-cated" and just make shit up. If you're interested in Enlightenment philosophy, then learn about the University of Timbuktu as well. If you admire the development of Greek democracy, check out the Iroquois Confederacy. I know we have to actively seek this stuff out - but if this subculture is really about discovery and 'forbidden' knowledge, then what better way to express that than by educating ourselves on intellectual and cultural achievements that a Eurocentric education doesn't inform us of? โ
โ If you know of any scholars, texts, or traditions that push against the usual grain, Iโd love to hear about them! โ Also, if anything in my profile layout feels misrepresented, please tell me - Iโm not here to appropriate culture, but to honour and celebrate a globalised, inclusive vision of Dark Academia. โ
โ Also: the playlist on this page is for the space between candlelight and caffeine. Every video has aesthetic visuals, every track tested under real study duress. And if you read the titles in orderโฆ you'll find that every beautiful thing is laced with ruin.โ
Who I'd like to meet:
โ There are far too many people Iโd like to meet - everyone carries a different truth, a different lens, and I want to borrow them all. โ I want to speak to people whoโve cried in art galleries. I want to sit beside those who walk slowly in cemeteries not out of grief, but reverence. I want to ask strangers what they regret most, and what they dream of when no one is watching. โ I want to meet philosophers who doubted themselves and poets who burned their drafts. I want to meet everyone who ever kept a journal and everyone who ever wrote a love letter and never sent it. โ I want to meet people who remind me of people I miss. โ But if I had to choose just one - one person to step through time or dream or memory - I think it would be my maternal grandmother. โ I imagine her with a book in one hand, a half-smile playing on her lips, watching the world through soft but sharp eyes. Iโd ask her what she feared most. Iโd ask her who she loved. Iโd ask if the restlessness in me once stirred in her bones. โ I wonder if she'd see me - truly see me - in the quiet way that nobody really can. โ
โ Iโd like to meet my older self - not for answers, but for presence. I wonder what Iโll carry, and what Iโll have finally laid down. Will I be softer, or sharper? Will I have made peace with my ghosts, or just taught them to dance more elegantly? โ I imagine her with ink-stained hands and lined eyes, still impulsively dyeing her hair darker, still loving things too deeply. Iโd ask if it was worth it. All of it. โ
โ I want to meet the versions of people that only exist in moments - the midnight version, the version crying in the backseat of a car, the version who finally said no. I want to meet the girls I used to be - the child holding a little torch and a Lemony Snicket book long after her bedtime, the twelve-year-old who wrote emo poetry on rainy days at school, the young woman who had it all...except for the sense of connection she yearns for. โ
โ Iโd like to meet fictional characters I swore were real - the ones who understood me before anyone else did. And I'd like to meet whoever Iโm meant to become, and tell her sheโll be okay, even if she isnโt yet. โ
โ And yes - I want to meet the people I wasnโt supposed to. The ones fate never introduced me to. The ones I passed on the street and never looked up for. The almosts. The nearlys. The never-quites. โ
โ There are far too many people Iโd like to meet. But maybe thatโs what this life is - a long, strange procession of introductions and goodbyes, with a handful of souls who leave fingerprints on the inside of your ribcage. โ
โช โMusic is the literature of the heart.โ โช - Alphonse de Lamartine
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Feel free to let me know whether I should add anything to my profile! And please do message me if you're also a fan of any Academia or Old Money related subcultures (especially if you, like me, interpret them in uncommon ways!) I'm now 18, please don't add me if you're under 16 <3 by ๐ฏ ๐๐๐๐!๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฏ; ; Report |
I've only just seen this! Thank you <3
I love that you like stars too, also you have really cool book/film taste :)
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