hendrixchf11

General

You might find it surprising that, despite describing myself as a “reclusive” individual, I possess a rather extensive array of interests. It would be reasonable to assume that I live a very limited life, and in some respects that is true, however, I make the most of my time indoors. While my ventures into the outside world are usually limited to casual strolls or routine errands, the bulk of my fulfillment comes from the activities I pursue within my own space. One of my primary passions is gaming. I can hardly imagine life without it. While I am not immersed in every aspect of gaming culture, I have consistently enjoyed playing a wide variety of games for many years. To me, it is a timeless pastime something that never loses its appeal and always provides a sense of engagement. Another interest of mine is anime, which should be evident from the aesthetic of my profile. This hobby is one I engage with both personally and communally, whether through collecting anime themed merchandise or participating in fan communities. I find the art style charming, the storytelling captivating, and the characters deeply resonant. Anime offers me both comfort in stressful moments and relaxation when I simply wish to unwind. My third major interest is music, a passion I believe is universal. Unlike many who claim a “broad” taste but only truly explore a handful of genres, I take genuine interest across a wide spectrum of musical styles. Though I won’t exaggerate and say I enjoy every subgenre imaginable, I do appreciate a significant variety. My greatest affinity lies with electronic music, not only for its versatility but also because I create electronic compositions myself an endeavor that makes the genre especially meaningful to me. These three interests may appear rather conventional, yet I assure you my perspectives on them are anything but generic. Should you ask, I am confident I could offer insights that go beyond the ordinary.

Music

When it comes to music, I find myself drawn to artists who can extract something raw, personal, and almost otherworldly from sound those who distort and reassemble it in ways that feel profoundly emotional. At the core of my listening habits lies electronic music, which spans an endless variety of subgenres, but my heart gravitates most strongly toward breakcore. That said, I don’t mean the more conventional associations with the genre, such as Venetian Snares. Instead, I am captivated by its more experimental branches mashcore, dancecore, and lolicore. Within this space, my foremost inspiration is the artist Shoebill, whose work I consider nothing short of legendary. His ability to transform no BPM folk songs into glitchy, chaotic mashcore compositions is unparalleled, and his sound represents the very pinnacle of what I aspire to achieve in my own music. Alongside Shoebill, I also immerse myself in the work of artists such as Noisetripper, J-core Slicer, Annoying Ringtone, Jimismakingmoney, THM, and Elrektm, all of whom bring their own unique energy to the mashcore and dancecore scene. Another towering influence for me is Goreshit, whose music resonates with me on the same level as Shoebill, though with a distinctly different flavor. What makes Goreshit remarkable is his ability to continually reinvent himself, shifting between genres with each project and pioneering new sounds along the way. His body of work stands as a testament to the limitless possibilities of electronic music, and for that reason, I also consider him an icon. In short, my taste is rooted in the strange, chaotic, and experimental edge of electronic music sounds that twist the expected into something deeply moving, innovative, and alive.

Movies

There are certain films I find myself continually drawn back to, works that sit with me long after the credits fade. They are not simply things I have watched, but things I carry with me. No Country for Old Men with its stark quiet weight, Akira with its endless pulse of unease, Fight Club with its fractured mirror, Whiplash with its relentless demand, and Full Metal Jacket with its unflinching gaze these are the ones that linger. I don’t choose them because they are comfortable. If anything, it’s because they refuse to be. They exist in that strange space between clarity and chaos, and in that space I find something honest... That's all to say they are overshadowed by television because I prefer television shows more

Television

When it comes to anime, there are a few that hold a special kind of resonance with me. K-On! carries this warm, almost nostalgic glow, it's lighthearted on the surface, but there’s a quiet depth in how it captures fleeting youth, friendship, and the comfort of routine. It’s one of those shows that becomes less about the music and more about the softness of everyday life, the kind of small moments that feel bigger than they should. Then there’s Watamote, which stands almost in stark contrast. It’s sharp, uncomfortable at times, but deeply honest in how it portrays isolation, anxiety, and the desperate, sometimes comical struggle to connect with others. I think it resonates because of its rawness, its unwillingness to sugarcoat those awkward truths. And of course Tokyo Ghoul, which speaks to that in between state of not quite belonging anywhere the tension of living at the border of two worlds, one human and one monstrous, while never feeling fully accepted in either. Its melancholy is in that identity crisis, in the constant push and pull between who you are and what the world demands you to be. Outside of anime, I don’t find myself as connected to television, but a few shows have still managed to stand out. The End of the F**ing World struck me with its dry humor and bleak tenderness it walks this thin line between absurdity and sincerity that feels oddly genuine. Breaking Bad has that larger than life descent into moral ambiguity, the slow corrosion of character that’s fascinating to watch even if it feels more distant. And The Punisher, though more straightforward, has a grit to it that mirrors the themes I usually gravitate toward: pain, isolation, and the attempt to find a kind of order in the middle of chaos.

Books

I'm not an avid book reader, nor have been ever enthusiastic about them in my life. A pile of words to read In silence is hard and unbearable also the fact they seem so clumped together is overwhelming.

Heroes

Shoebill, Goreshit, Sonny Shimoda, Himeko Katagiri, Reizoko Cj, FRSKN, Pukesquid, Tomato Cat, Ecchi-Chan!

YouTube

youtube.com/@Gragrabn

TikTok

@gragrabnfernandez

Spotify

Spotify

Website

bandcamp.com/hikkigragrabnfan