Wiktoria :3

About me:

about me...? well, who am i? a question so elusive, it perhaps fails to matter. if only oblivion could be reached, i, who am i? how can i claim to know such a thing? this concept itself is absurd, for, as socrates humbly declared, ''the only thing i know is that i know nothing'' - so what is this ''i'' that i am prone to speak about? there is no ''i'' to begin with, and i could die still ensnared in ignorance of my own true self; that would be terrible. i lie to myself, and in that lie, i find a strange joy, as if falsehoods could alter the course of fate and rewrite my destiny. without any concerns, i keep lying about what i don't know myself. i lie to others, embrace the lie and accept them as my own, passing them as truths to others. the deception is my only comfort, and i even grow accustomed to believing in miracles. i would not choose to live otherwise

''i am proud of my heart alone, it is the sole source of everything, all our strength, happiness and misery. all the knowledge i possess everyone else can acquire, but my heart is all my own” - goethe   

my views often lean towards nihilism, yet i cherish this hope of finding something else. i find myself particularly drawn to the complexities of determinism, moral error theory, absurdism, existentialism, and the ethics of moral non-cognitivism. im also interested in relativism and subjectivism, autonomy, love as a metaphysical and ontological and just meaning of life concept and confucianism. recently, i've delved into the works of schopenhauer and cioran. at present, im reading aristotle's de anima 

beyond philosophy, i also find fascination in psychology and criminology, i read the dsm5 unironically (im a cluster b baddie hihi [NPD] ). in the end, i have no fixed sense of self. possibly this is what defines me. and yeah that is all that i have to say about myself ^^.

im also very happy to be unfiltered here so i can just yap (love the blog function:3) 

Who I'd like to meet:

i'd like to meet someone intellectually curious - someone who challenges not only me, but also themselves. unfortunately, i tend to have high expectations of others, though that’s beside the point. i admire people who strive to be compassionate and understanding. i love interesting (maybe considered problematic by many) people!