Wicker

some things that come to mind to touch on are my plurality, queerness, disability, and alterhumanity. so, here we go!

first things first, plurality. i'm a system. i use i/me when talking, most of the time, but it really depends. i don't care about what terms you use to refer to me, be they singular or plural! if you're not involved in the plural community, all you need to know is this: there's more than one fella rattling around in this brain of mine, who may or may not drive my body at any given time. none of us are more "real" than the others, we all deserve respect, etc. etc.. if you are involved in the plural community, you may have further questions. here are my answers. i have a dissociative disorder. i am also endogenic, and am (obviously) pro-endogenic. i consider myself two separate systems at once; one that is based in my dissociative disorder and was caused by trauma, another that formed spontaneously at an unknown point in my life and is neither disordered nor spiritual. i will not use the word tulpa (for myself or others) in the westernized context.

my plurality is an important piece of who i am, so don't be surprised if i blog about it or bring it up somewhat frequently!

next on the docket: queerness! i am an unapologetically queer individual. labels-wise, because despite how reductive labels can be they sure are fun, i'm a transfemmasc genderfluid intersex abrosexual femme gay/butch lesbian with recipromantic tendencies. if you're going to be weird about my simultaneous use of gay+lesbian, let me pose to you these questions: why must sexuality fit into such rigid boxes? why can my manhood and womanhood exist simultaneously, while my sexualities cannot? why are people so concerned with keeping lesbianism pure and man-free, even when they acknowledge that gender is a harmful social construct?

anyway. if you couldn't tell, i'm passionate about queer intracommunity issues. i have a complicated identity that i only recently fully blossomed into (and i'm sure it will continue to evolve, as all parts of me will).

moving on from there, we have my disability. i am mentally and physically disabled. my diagnoses aren't your business; while i'm generally open about them when asked (in good faith), i'm not particularly interested in broadcasting them, either. autism is one of the only things i'm generally upfront about, as far as specifics go. alongside autism, i have a severe anxiety disorder, a dissociative disorder, chronic pain, a hormonal condition, and probably other things. i'm very early on in my journey through figuring out what's going on with my body and mind; all i know is that it sucks.

due to my disabilities, i am unable to work and am not currently attending college. i also often have to use mobility aids, especially if i'm moving around on a consistent basis. this makes me more available than a lot of people, but not necessarily more active online. especially with how bad my insomnia has been lately. sigh.

lastly, my alterhumanity! i'm a vampire. not necessarily like the vampyres you'd find on forums, but not really vampirekin(d), either. just a vampire. this has been true since i was like... 5? at least? but i only awakened to it a couple years ago.

i have a few otherkind and copinglink identities, but none of them are nearly as important as the vampire thing. individual members of the systems have their own identities that may or may not supersede the collective vampirism.

okay, that's all i'll be squeezing into here, but if you couldn't tell, i love to talk about myself! i also love to hear about others, so feel free to reach out to chat with each other about things we may or may not have in common :))