joel

General

researching is my favourite hobby.. yes, i'm a big nerd.. i adore psychology, literature, and anything revolving around mental health, i make ocs because I have nothing else to do. My special interest is, in fact, one of the ships I have of my oc!! i like learning about pc specs.. like how a gpu functions, how we can fix pcs.. etc.. etc. i also love sanrio, i make certain dichotomies on purpose because it seems human!! one of my goals is to be intelligent in the arts of linguistics, i adore the concept of understanding and memorizing many words and knowing the meaning of every word, and describing the indescribable (˶ˆᗜˆ˵)

Music

jeff buckley , emezie okorafor , natewantstobattle , morrissey, lily chou chou, pastel ghost, poison girlfriend, mitski, deftones, pink pantheress, kmfdm, heart-shaped hate, party cannon, chemlab, bjork, clairo, laufey, alex g, mars argo, i can listen to anything as long as its.. like pleasant (atleast for me), but like!! i used to listen to ambience constantly, it helps because i can barely listen to music without having a stinking headache im sensitive to loud noises

Movies

hmmmm,, here's what i've watched!! all about lily chou-chou, pearl, girl interrupted, the perks of being a wallflower, black swan, we don't talk about kevin, corpse bride, scott pilgrim vs the world, scream (1996), jennifer's body, it , the fnaf movie... yes don't judge i loved it a lot (˶>⩊<˶) , american psycho, the black phone, The mean girls, Batman begins (2005), The Batman (2022), Stranger things, House MD, Dexter, Alice in Borderland, Hannibal NBC, Marble hornets, Walten files, Mandela Catalogue, Wednesday.. (i'll add more if I remember them!!!)

Television

Hasumi.. I like hasumi, from all about lily-chou-chou.. he reminds me of myself :3 , i love charlie from tpobaw.. same reason for my like for hasumi.. i mean, every single one of my favourite characters are always the one i relate to!! except for some which i'll specify !!, Kevin Khatchadourian.. not because i relate to him, but because his character perfectly portrays my experience with aspd, ame-chan, its a bit self-explanatory if you know her character really well, but i dont relate to the part of her being a shotacon (Kangel).. or relate to the volume of her character, the stuff i struggle through is always silent, simon from cry of fear.. yes this is also quite self-explanatory too, similar to ame's,, .. I only relate to pre-book simon. anyways,, Will byers :DDD I love him!!! but his story is devastating and eerily similar to my life, a lot. so yes! i kin him 100% Albert Wesker from resident evil.. don't even get me started, my love for him is a bit unhinged but I don't relate to him, it's more of a 'pppllss kiss me' love, Leon Kennedy from resident evil... my baby (i know he's a grown man), i relate to him so much but also want to be with him iykwim !!! especially rookie leon hes so bebe awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww (˶ˆᗜˆ˵)!!!! , Wednesday Addams from the Wednesday series... honestly, I relate to her cause my stoicism can sometimes play among Wednesday's characteristics (how she displays herself in the series reminds me of how I hold myself irl)... oh yeah i like hannibal. hannibal lecter.. i like a shit ton of the nbc characters.. but my #1 is hannibal, cus .. mads mikkelsen xD ok no im joking ,,,!! but hannibal's character is so beautifully written to me but there are some moments where i couldn't defend his ahhh broken heart but its ok. i love will graham too!!!! , max caufield from the 1st lis game specifically,, her design is so cute shes so aww i relate to her (how many times have I said this??? ok.. no one cares ok?) theres also mortal kombat.. i like, johnny cage. hes like my #1 but i do love other characters (i only got into mk1), like: kitana, kenshi, sonya, sub-zero,, oh yueah especially millena!!and liu kang :3 ,, Oh yeah. I also ahve Alex kralie. I heavily relate to him alot, me and him share the same typology system mkkinda (same enneagram, mbti, but haven't seen his temperaments or his instinctual variants yet but i think he'd be an so1 and i'm also an so1 ˙𐃷˙) .. if there's more.. i'll just display them on my profile, i'm 2 lazy to write all of them..

Books

I JUUST GOT ONE OF FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY'S BOOKS: THE WHITE NIGHT!!! i finally finished it, I haven't started on 'one of us is lying'.. I haven't finished my other books. I have uuhhhm,lasdkajdakl girl in pieces, then she was just gone, pinball 1973, dance dance dance.. the asylum book series... i wanna finish gip first before doing the others.. honestly my biggest author inspo is haruki, im quite a strong imaginator, and haruki blends both magical realism & the moody atmosphere in his novels and those are my favourite things, i do like literature yeah.. but his 'simple' and 'easy' words carry an emotional weight which adds onto the complexity of humans , representing his wider audience. Haruki himself should be known for being authentic with his novels...but thats my opinionn. ദ്ദി◝ ⩊ ◜) .✦ ݁

Heroes

hehehehehe my go-to youtubers are always these people: rotten mango, kubzscouts, shooshimooshi, justin haan, nella rose (she's a judge and her series is so fuckign funny bro), misses virus, dark asia with megan, smosh, random encounters, brandon rogers, emezie okorafor.. jessi vee, life of luxury, natewantstobattle, sarabeautycorner, tomei (her playlists are so calming i cant resist, i discovered her when i wanted some calming asmr and i discovered her blue sky jelly and i just watched the whole thing, so mesmerized by her translucent aero-like minimalism aesthetic its so ethereal).. theres this youtuber called (レシピ王), i translated it to recipe king but this youtuber is so underrated, but tomei is also underrated.. they showcase anpanman toys, and anpanman was like my childhood cartoons back then, also doraemon. i was into japanese cartoons back then, the designs were so cute.. lastly i think, wah!banana, i binge-watch their old videos i had a crush on one of the actors and i still cant help but jump at his presence, LDshadowlady !! how could i forget her .. (if theres more i'll add them!!!)

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