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Music

Movies

"You look lonelyโ€ฆ"

"Gerry, I don't wanna go back to work."
โ€”  "What should I do?"
โ€” "Quit."
"Stay here with me."

โ€I donโ€™t see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.โ€

"With this hand I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never empty, for I will be your wine. With this candle, I will light your way in darkness. With this ring, I ask you to be mine."

Television

โ€œDonโ€™t worry Mordecai and Rigby; I know youโ€™re sad but I promise this is a happy ending. Take care of each other. Goodbyeโ€ฆโ€

"Listen to me, Morty. I know that new situations can be intimidating. You're lookinโ€™ around and itโ€™s all scary and different, but yโ€™know, meeting them head-on, charging into โ€˜em like a bullโ€”thatโ€™s how we grow as people."
"Going ghost!"

Books

โ€œI love you," I whisper.
"And I love you." He smiles, his lips seeking mine. "Always have. Always will.โ€

Heroes

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Hey there, beautiful souls!
I'm a young writer with a big heart and an even bigger imagination. When I'm not getting lost in the worlds I create with words, you'll probably find me curled up with a good book, riding my bike with the wind in my hair, or chasing the horizon on a spontaneous road trip. I've got a deep love for animalsโ€”especially my magical little feline queen, Isis. She's named after the Egyptian Goddess of Magic and Catwoman's cat, and yes, she absolutely lives up to the name. She's my heart!
I'm proudly gay, and if that makes you uncomfortable, feel free to return to the page you came from. My SpaceHey is a safe, welcoming zone for everyoneโ€”no judgement, just love, good vibes, and a bit of glitter. You're more than welcome here!
Taylor Swift lyrics run through my veins, technology fascinates me, and I believe 420 is a peaceful part of my lifestyle. I also work in healthcare, and I truly believe healing is my life's calling. Helping others lights me up from the inside out!
So stay a while, vibe with me, and never be afraid to be exactly who you are! This is your safe space, too!




Personal Drugs

memories | 4:57 am
|โ You cut out a piece of me and now I bleed internally โ|
โ€” Something has changed in you towards me.
You're distant, cold.
I don't know what I've done,
but I'll leave you alone from now on if that's what you want.
Is that what you want?
You know why I'd leave you alone?
Because I care about your feelings more than mine.
I love you.
There I said it, not just on some chalkboard.
I would never let anybody or anything hurt you.
I've never felt that way about anyone.

โœ๐Ÿป


"I know I can't make you miss me, but I just wanted you to know that you're my everything. You're my morning when I don't want to get up and you're my late nights when I think about our "what if's" we talked about. You're the reason I hate false hope because someone gave you false hope and it tore you apart. You gave me false hope and it tore me the fuck apart. But, let me tell you something. It was the best false hope anyone could've given me and I'd choose to have your false hope over, and over, and over again instead of never ever meeting you."
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Who I'd like to meet:


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โœ๐Ÿป
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๐Ÿ•ฐ๏ธ
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Taylor Swift, LGBTQIA+ members, writers, stoners, gamers, etc.

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Cecelia

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Love your page so much!!! I love writing too, I want to get back into it!!!

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Omg thank you so much!!! And yes, I also need to get back into writing some more! I just work a lot lol

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me too.. i have no idea how these ppl do it tbh!!!! <3 hope we find the time & energy tho cheers

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her jinx

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Thanks for the add! Dms are always open if ya wanna be my friend- Jinx

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We immediately are besties now! Don't forget to drink water

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Yes!! Besties!!!!! Forever!!

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Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe

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Thanks for the add bro, how you going?

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No problem! I'm doing alright, just recently got off work a few hours ago and now I can't sleep! lmao how about you?

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Ah fun times, normally how it goes isn't it haha.

Yeah not too bad I'm currently moving (taking my sweet ass time) and been getting a bit more into gaming again

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

First off, congrats on the new place!!! And ouuu what games do you play? I'm a gamer myself!

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Haha yeah fair, oh its just in with my gf and we rent so nothing too exciting haha!

Hmm at the moment I've just been stuck with my retro games on PC.

So Swat 3, 4 and Age of Empires 1 and 2. As for modern games I did play Satsifactory (mind the spelling i think its wrong).

How about you, what games are you into?

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

Ooh okay no worries! I rent with my boyfriend so it's all good lmao regardless, congrats!

I play The Sims, Final Fantasy XIV, Mortal Kombat 11 (PS5), Apex Legends, Overwatch, League of Legends, etc.!

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Haha fair!

Ahhh nice, yeah I've got the Sims 1, 2 and I gotta finish installing all the DLC for Sims 3...its a long process but now I've got the internet on my old PC, shouldn't be too hard getting keys for them all lololol

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

If you ever want a little *extra help* in getting the games, I got you! ;)

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Haha cheers, I had to do the old dodgy finding a keygen for a program I wanted to use on my retro PC, I couldn't find a torrent of it - was too old/unseeded.

If I get stuck, I'll let ya know :)

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Aww okay! Sounds good. Yeah, if you need help, I gotcha! Lemme know how everything goes!!!

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Yeee boi!

I also accepted you on MSN a while back but my messages wouldn't send at the time haha. I think they did now!

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

Hey, no worries! I checked it last night! Not too many people know about Escargot, so I was shocked when I saw your email in your bio! I was like, "Oh, I have to add him on there!"

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Yeah I had a few people add me but never on (ironically I'm not on) but yeah I had a few friends say they wish/miss MSN and when I mentioned about it - they rather just go nah lol.

Wish more people would jump on tbh

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

Yeah, it's a true tragedy! I love the old MSN messenger! I hope to see more people use it. And hopefully they can fix Yahoo! Messenger cos that's been broken for a minute lol

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Yeah damn, I didn't use Yahoo much back in the day but went there for a bit when they closed off the chatrooms on MSN back in the day..haha good times. I believe the people who do MSN also have ICR up and running I believe, I never used it much/enough to know/remember it very well

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

Hmm, I've never heard of ICR, what is it? And yeah, I used to use Yahoo a lot when I was much younger to talk to friends and use the games to play!

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Hmm unless it was iqr.ill have to google lol. It was just another chat application from memory

by Bacon ๐Ÿฅ“.exe; ; Report

Hmm, lemme know what you find out! Iโ€™m highly interested

by ๐’๐ฉ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž๐ซ; ; Report

Ah seems I'm dumb it wss ICQ ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ

ICQ, short for "I Seek You", was a pioneering instant messaging and VoIP client, developed by Mirabilis in 1996, that later became popular, especially in Russia and Eastern Europe, before eventually shutting down on June 26, 2024

Legit didnt knowit closed recently.... perhaps it was AIM I'm thinking of

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Didrick

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Thanks for the add! Taylor Swift is a great artist, I'm humming a few of her songs from time to time and she's also often played on the radio here in Norway. My sister in law and her kids went to see her in concert in Sweden a few years ago and they had a blast! :)

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Omg hi, and thanks for the add! And yes, Taylor Swift is a HUGE inspiration in my life! Iโ€™m so happy to hear Iโ€™m making new connections with people who also adore her! ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿป๐Ÿค

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SHโˆ†ZDโˆ†R

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Cheers, Spencer! May the wind under your wings bear you where the sun sails and the moon walks.

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OMG thank you so much for the kind words! I just checked out your page and I love your layout! I also did check out a few songs from your different playlists; love it!!!

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just thinking of you <3

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OMIGODS HI! I MISS YOU SO FREAKING MUCH! PLEASE DO NOT BE A STRANGER! ๏ธโœจ

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claytech

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I hope you donโ€™t mind, I stole your national suicide prevention hotline image from your profile.

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THXX 4 4DD1NG M3!!!1! x3

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Shaitanshammer

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Hi!

Hope all is well!

Thanks for the add.

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Donald

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Howโ€™s things? Hope all is well

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Hey, so sorry for just now getting back to you. I'm doing alright, how about you?

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Just on the exercise bike making a sweat! Getting back in shape so I can take on the world. Glad you are good, i hope things are on an upward climb for you :) visit the heyspace more often!

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Damn, a two weeks later and shit actually hit the fan for me... I was doing well at the time and now I'm in a complete crisis. Life is a complete bitch, hitting me with more things than I can mentally handle...

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Janiโ˜†Noir

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Hey there! Thanks for adding me.
Have a nice day. xoxo

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Jaylissa Anne

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Hey, im really sorry i havent checked up on you in awhile. Ive been dealing with some shi. How are you doing tho? ๐Ÿ–ค

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sarah โ™ก

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hi angel!
โ™ก how are you doing!

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Lets be friends

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sarah โ™ก

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hey love โ™ก
just wanted to see how you've been & check in

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Heey thanks for accepting :D

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Shann

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Hello, thanks for accepting my request :)
I really really like your custom layout, did you make it yourself? *_*

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I did all of the things you see on my page, yes! And you're welcome! If you ever need anything please don't hesitate to reach out. My IMs are always open to the public

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XxDahliaxX

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Hey there, thanx for the add!
I read your bio and one of the bulletins you posted. You sound like such a nice, caring, amazing person. It also sounds like you have been in pain.
It reminds me of something that I heard.
The loneliest people smile are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most hurt people are the wisest. And the people that don't expect from others are the happiest.
How are you, btw?

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I may sound like a caring and loving person but that's only because I am! I've also heard that saying somewhere, I just don't remember where or when exactly. But thank you for remind me that.

I'm managing but still alive. You?

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I hear that. Everyday is a battle on its own.
I'm doing alright, thank you for asking!

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Josefina

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Hey, thanks for the add. :)

I read your super powerful blog that you posted. Wow. As someone who has been there before, and also failed several attempts, I can say that I'm glad I'm still here. In turn, I'm glad you're still here and able to share your story the way that you did. I believe that truly helps others, who feel alone, or have no one to talk too. The internet has been a godsend in that way - helping those who are lonely. I've met some of my best friends through social media.

It's also given me a platform to write my own thoughts about trauma, depression and loss. I lost one of my best friends in January of 2019 (she had cancer) and things just haven't been the same. So I feel for you on the loss of one of yours. The pain is horrific sometimes. It really is.

Life isn't perfect. It won't be, for anyone. Anyone who claims they are happy 100% of the time, are absolutely bullshitting you. Everyone has bad days. Some people's bad days are more extreme than others, but it doesn't mean that we all aren't quietly suffering in some form. Especially with this global collective panic/worry/depression that has been caused in the past year. But there are people out there who will listen and will happily be a friend, if given the chance. So the next time you're in a really rough spot, try to remember, that those thoughts will die down again. They will come back, but you're right, it's part of an illness, but they're not permanent. They will go away and you will have moments of happiness/tranquility/peace. Embrace them.

If you ever need to chat, feel free to hit me up. :)

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First and foremost, thank you for sharing that with me. It means a lot to know that even though we may be strangers over the internet, you opened up like that so gracefully. Absolutely beautifully written.

Secondly, I am sincerely sorry from the bottom of my heart you had to endure such a loss such as a precious soul fleeting from this world, involuntary or not. You're definitely right about feeling being horrific to deal with. Sometimes it becomes overbearing and just too much for my shoulders to handle. It's hard for me to cope to the point where I still text my dead best friend's phone number every single night before falling asleep. I know it's not active anymore but still. It brings me peace and comfort anyway.

It's words and kindness like yours and Kelly Chaos' that makes me feel alive again. It fuels my ambition and reminds me why I'm still here. Though I might lose my focus, stumbling and falling, I will rise again and pick myself back up. I just hope you stick around to see me blossom into the person I want to be.

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Connecting with people is something I do best. I think it's the empath in me. I can relate to a shocking level of trauma. 2008-2017 were NOT good years. I have some kind of horror story for each one of them. But the experience that I have tried to take from that disaster is that everyone is going through something. I would never want to be unkind to someone, purposefully, even if they had reacted towards me first. a) I don't have the energy to be mad. I just don't. b) if they are reacting at me, they are probably hurting themselves, and compassion, while slightly irritating, might be the better way to receive their anger. Doesn't mean I have always succeeded in that. But I try. Because life is hard and there is no guidebook. We aren't taught in schools how to deal with trauma, or death, or really how to *live* life. It's a trial and error sort of thing.

I think it's sweet that you still text their number. I don't do that. But I have a voicemail that's saved and whenever I miss her voice, I listen to that. Sometimes, I'll go back and scan old emails or Skype chats, something that was just an *us* thing. She was much more of a public figure than I was, so while there is material out there that is of her...it's not the same. It's not the connection that *we* had, specifically. But ugh. Yes. Survivors guilt is just awful sometimes.

It's okay to lose focus, as long as you come back on track, at some point. I pretty much disappeared from social media (minus FB) for all of 2020. As someone whose job relies on social media...that wasn't a smart move. But I didn't have the strength or the spoons to do much. I'm just now getting back on track. Sometimes losing focus isn't a one day/one week event. Sometimes it's a 365 day one. Just as long as you come back. And remember your dreams and goals, and hopes for the future.

I hope you do have the chance to fall in love and raise children. Your wisdom, at nineteen, is truly amazing. I'm just a touch over a decade older than you and if I had had your wisdom and words at that age, it probably would've saved me a year or two of the bullshit that was the end of my teen years. You have a way with words...and if you can, and you want to, you should pursue that. A lot of people could benefit from hearing your story.

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Hi! Thanks for the add. What a cool, well thought out profile. Have a great day!

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Thank you for checking it out, it means a lot to me. And thank you, you too! Just make sure to stay hydrated

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