ʜɪɴᴀᴋᴏ

"I'm gonna die alone in a rotting pot. aren't I?"

no matter where, I can't make friends. is it my fault ?

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General	ִֶָ . ..𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ🪽་༘࿐Mʏ ᴍᴜsɪᴄ ᴛᴀsᴛᴇ ɪs ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴇᴀsᴛ sᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ. I ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ғɪxᴇᴅ ɢᴇɴʀᴇ ᴏʀ ᴏʙsᴇssɪᴏɴ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ. I ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ sᴡɪᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴄᴏɴsᴛᴀɴᴛʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴏᴅ. Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs I’ʟʟ ʀᴇᴘʟᴀʏ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ sᴏɴɢs ғᴏʀ ᴅᴀʏs, ᴀɴᴅ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴛɪᴍᴇs I ɢᴇᴛ ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ ᴏғ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ sᴛᴀʀᴛ ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ғᴏʀ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ ᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ. Iᴛ’s ᴋɪɴᴅ ᴏғ ᴍᴇssʏ, ʙᴜᴛ I ɢᴜᴇss ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ɴᴇᴡ ᴍᴜsɪᴄ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴋᴇᴇᴘs ᴛʜɪɴɢs ғʀᴏᴍ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ᴛᴏᴏ ʀᴇᴘᴇᴛɪᴛɪᴠᴇ..✦ ݁˖
Music	Imagine your mind is a radio stuck on static: nothing sounds clear, and it is impossible to focus. Even if you want to ignore it, it's always there and your mind stays like that, static.
Movies	Oh?-....you are actually reading this ..𖹭. Going for instinct, I could put anything I could want to in this space but right now my mind is blank. I'm entirely gonna say that before, I thought that if I pushed my mental instabilities long enough they would eventually dissapear and, maybe I was wrong. Medical results turn out to be morbid depression deeply developing thought years. And that, whatever happened for me to get so down was that intense that my brain entirely block it. I can't remember what happened now, perhaps putting this online it's not the smartest idea...
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What could posses you to even do that...? But if in any case you do, here is my discord in case you wanna add me. I'm not sure why you would : hinakochan._ Trying to gain some motivation and time to make this profile less pathetic I guess ...uh .. I'm hinako , Im eighteen and I'm kind of feel desperate with my own pathetic life. First time trying internet friendship methods. But it's not really working I meant if I don't even have friends in the real world why was I even thinking I could learn how to make friends online? That's just... Difficult... Why did I even think about this. I'm not even that interesting, everything I love is pretty much not so outstanding I ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʜᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ ᴇxᴘʟᴀɪɴ ᴍʏ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛs ᴘʀᴏᴘᴇʀʟʏ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴇᴅɪᴀ I ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴜsᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʟᴇᴀɴs ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅ ᴘsʏᴄʜᴏʟᴏɢɪᴄᴀʟ, ɴᴏsᴛᴀʟɢɪᴄ, ᴏʀ ᴜɴsᴇᴛᴛʟɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇs. Gᴀᴍᴇs, ᴍᴏᴠɪᴇs, sᴇʀɪᴇs, ᴄᴏᴍɪᴄs, ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴀɴɢᴀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴏʀʀᴏʀ, ᴘsʏᴄʜᴏʟᴏɢɪᴄᴀʟ ʜᴏʀʀᴏʀ, ᴘᴀʀᴀɴᴏʀᴍᴀʟ ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇs, ᴘᴀʀᴀʟʟᴇʟ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅs, ᴏʀ sᴛʀᴀɴɢᴇ ғɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ sᴛᴏʀɪᴇs ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴄᴀᴛᴄʜ ᴍʏ ᴀᴛᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴇᴀsɪʟʏ. I ᴀʟsᴏ sᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴏғ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʟɪsᴛᴇɴɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴏᴅᴄᴀsᴛs ᴏʀ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏs ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴄʀɪᴍɪɴᴏʟᴏɢʏ, ᴘᴏᴅᴄᴀsᴛs ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟ sᴛᴏʀɪᴇs, ʀᴇᴀʟ ᴄᴀsᴇs ғᴏᴏᴛᴀɢᴇ ғʀᴏᴍ ɴᴇᴡs ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴘ ʙᴏᴅʏᴄᴀᴍs, ᴀɴᴅ ғɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ ʜᴏʀʀᴏʀ [ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄʀᴇᴘᴘʏᴘᴀsᴛᴀs ʀᴇᴅᴅɪᴛ ᴏɴᴇs] ᴀʀᴇ ᴀʟsᴏ ᴛʜɪɴɢs I sᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʟɪsᴛᴇɴɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ No matter how much I try, I can't even make anyone barely have any kind of interest for me,it's sound awfully cringe and stupid. Maybe I'm too boring, or dramatic or too awkward and, everyone is awkward but, why does it feels like it's my fault? I can't stop thinking about it lately. Not even online I can have friends, then how am I supposed to have in the real world? Im so bad at keeping contact no matter how much I try

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Wɪᴛʜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ I could ʜᴀᴠᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ. Aɴʏᴏɴᴇ, ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɢᴇɴᴜɪɴᴇʟʏ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ⬩➤ I'm sorry,. I deeply sorry, Im sorry. If I become annoying or just start writting nonsense or just up nonstop about anything. I don't wanna be annoying, I'm sorry If I also don't replay inmediatly, I panick. I don't know how to start a conversation