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General |
i like my hero academia and gachiakuta. |
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Music |
i listen to a lot of music but its mostly whatever plays from my playlist. |
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Movies |
idk i dont watch movies much, but i would like to watch more. |
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Television |
i just like my hero and gachiakuta |
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Books |
i like the mangas from both my hero and gachiakuta |
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Heroes |
all might |
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About me:
sometimes i feel really weird about myself, i hate talking and engaging with people that i dont know. And i hate the way that, that can impact the people i care about, recently i was asked to walk up to a food truck and get chocolate dipped strawberrys for someone in my family. And i was to socially awkward to just go up and get them. I felt so bad for the rest of the day knowing that i had just ruined their whole day.
I hate the way i look and act, i mess things up all the time and i just cant seem to get things right for myself. I try to act cool during the day but really i wonder if anyone would even care if i was gone. i suck at picking up on social cues and it means that i cant comprehend peoples feelings about me. I feel that people treat me differently because of the way i act, which to completely fair but i just wanna be a normal guy.
Theres people i think are my friends but then they will leave me behind and speak in a way that just makes my skin crawl. Its all messing up my school life, my grades are slipping and im generally just doing worse. I have 2 classes with nobody i know and i have absolutely no clue how to talk or engage with these people that im supposed to relate to.
I just want to be normal and i feel horrible about the fact that i cant be, i have adhd which makes things even worse. I have massive jealousy problems and i cant control it, seeing people that i wanna hangout with, with someone else just makes me wanna die. I genuinely just wanna know if anyone that i care about feels the same. ive got like 3 friends and i can barely even talk to them. I want to go to therapy but i feel like thats a burden when i cant get there by myself.
its so much easier to talk to strangers on the internet than it is to talk to real people. Why cant i be normal? im either trying to hard or not trying hard enough, i feel scared coming to school in regular clothes because i know people are judging me. I hate my hair, it wont do anything i want it to, its not long enough and i just dont know how to cut it.
i just hate everything and its horrible knowing that ill never be happy with myself or anyone else.
My only friends are amazing people and thrive in any environment, however i know theyre struggling just as much as i am but im to anxious to actually talk to them. Why am i like this? How am i supposed to get better, i have nothing to do in my free time and thats simply because i suck at everything, i love so many things that i could to but i dont have the abilities to actually go foward with them.
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Who I'd like to meet:
I want to meet new people, theres people that i cant stand and theres people that i love but its weird if i say that. I would love to think that theres people who feel the same way about me but i doubt it. But it would be great to have someone to talk to.
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