I am supppppperrrr interested in astronomy and also psychology a bit (well pretty much just dissociative disorders :00

what do i even put here? oh well theres so much going on in my life do i just rant?

okay so i have/had this friend lets call her T now we met 1,5 years ago at the start of the school year we became quick friends n shit so yeahhh ig okay um she was always kinda possessive of me? for example when i made friends while she was sick and not at school she was always hostile towards them and later she did warm up to them but like for secret santa one of them gifted me peak shit yay so ofc i thanked her and like hugged her but bro T did NOT like that she was like “go to your other friends” and like shit like that but it doesnt stop there quick tw for sa kinda idk but sh too okay well basically i somehow got a crush on her and somehow i was smart enough to cut her inital into my skin a week before swim class started luckily it wasnt that deep so yeah but also like we sat next to eachother in class and she would always touch my thighs really high n shit also like she touched near my upper chest yk and in general made me uncomfy so like yeah that happened anyways so like a new friend came along: L yayy but T hated L cuz she thought that L was stealing me away wtf anyways now like we arent that close anymore thankfully but things have started getting worse

okkkaayyyyy so new school year over summer holidays we pretty much had no contact except for a sleepover where she watched sum rape yaoi w me tf but ya new school year im now super close w L and T is noticeably jealous okay theres a new student E we hate her ok? but ya she became weirdly close w T even making her uncomfortable also E is lesbian, T is bi (women pref) and L is aroace okay so like I made a secret rant acc on tt and posted a rant about T there and also some others but these werent ab T okayy so E found them and spoke to me about it i forgot what i said so like fast forward to idk when end of 2025 tho okay so since me and T walk to school together she like always yapped and shit but that day she was quiet and she like said that she had a crush on me n shit uh yeah a week or so later she talked to me on our way back from school and said she cut herself because its the only way to forget about me cuz like she didnt know wether i liked her or not so like ig that happened ok so class trip i was in a room w L n T and sum other girls who kept vaping anyways on i think wednesday she went to E’s room cuz me and L were talking in english and she doesnt understand english yeah so like an hour later T came back crying and L talked to her (btw me and L both hate T and E) okay well then i went to dinner and L later told me that T told her that i found her disgusting cuz we like kissed uh yeah thats correct but anyways T also said that i was the only reason she was still alive guess who told T allat E because ofc she has to omfgggg anyways i got that over with sooo yayyyy like a couple of days ago tho T told me and L that E told T that she should stop hanging out w us and like distance her from us so ok ig