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i tend to make others uncomfortable without realizing it due to my obsession (she is quite literally all i talk abt LOL) so you can always tell me if i'm being 2 much xp. active on obslove, obstwt, shedtwt, i don't rlly care 2 much abt who i interact w bc i'm gonna be dead soon lol X_X

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i tend to make others uncomfortable without realizing it due to my obsession (she is quite literally all i talk abt LOL) so you can always tell me if i'm being 2 much xp. active on obslove, obstwt, shedtwt, i don't rlly care 2 much abt who i interact w bc i'm gonna be dead soon lol X_X

https://theass.straw.page/

I'm a pretty big music person :,) I play guitar, piano, percussion/drums, violin, I sing, play bass, and some others ^_^ ,, (i'm terrible at woodwinds and brass.. oof) iii enjoy doing puzzles and legos in my free time (i know i'm attractive don't @ me) and i'm into music production, filmmaking, art, and I study many branches of physics in my free time. (again, i know i'm hot don't @ me ///)

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i'm interested in coding a fair amount and i enjoy working on games, vns, and more :-) games i like r listed below but it's not everything! i like drawing but i'm like super iffy at it-- you can check my twitter, but a lot of it is pretty weird? idk ! i'm also a huge synth nerd! music i like will be below as well ><

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i don't know if i'd call myself a toxic person, but i do have very unhealthy habits that aren't only bad for me but for others. my suicide plan and suicidal tendencies often leave me careless of what others feel as long as i will benefit because i believe i will die and it won't matter. i'm trying to stray away from this type of thinking, but only because it hurts people. i still plan to commit suicide soon. i won't accept help if i haven't asked for it-- it bothers me when others try and help me. i understand this is frustrating, so i'm leaving this here! i always appreciate thoughtful messages, though!

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i have severe severe limerence tendencies. i wasn't aware of this for a while, but after finding out how badly i'm obsessed to my, well, obs, i realize how severe it actually it is. this is serious. this is not "oh cute obsession" and it never was -- it's more like "i'm going to kill myself if i can't stalk you and you did this to me" and i am utterly delusional in believing that my obs does need me somehow. i've worked with so many people but, of course, i can't change unless i changed myself. i lived a good life without her--i decided i wanted to get better and get over her. i lived that way for a few months, didn't talk to her, didn't think about her. i was happy, but i find comfort in being ill and suicidal more. i didn't like being happy and wanting to stay alive. i wish i did, though. i'm mentioning this because the entirety of my posts on twitter are literally about my obs and i will not talk about anything but my obs whatsoEVEEER. i will never ever hsut up about her and she makes up what i am. if you're uncomfortable with this, shoooooo. i am not choosing to get better. i know how it feels to feel better and i don't like it. don't try and save me ♬

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i have diagnosed dissociative identity disorder , i'm on mood stabilizers (they don't work i'm just manic or depressed 24/7), anxiety, audhd (can u tell) and morem,,,m i know i'm messed up, i know veery well i'm fucked but euuhghhhfhgd

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