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General	I was always serious, and I will always know that it was remarkable
Music	Quiero sacarte de mi cabeza, me estás lastimando Uoh-oh-oh ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Pasó pensando en cómo esto pudo haber funcionado ───────────── ✦ ────────── Eres mucho más ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Y quiero destapar Me gustas tanto ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Y eso no puedo pararlo ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Tu pelo negro y no puedo parar de mirarlo..
Movies	｡˚ ☄︎ I N T E R S T E L L A R ☄︎ ˚｡
Television	Con toda la sal ───────────── ✦ Y la arena del mundo ───────────── ✦ Construire un castillo ───────────── ✦ Para que estemos junto <3 ───────────── ✦ Pero la marea... ───────────── ✦ De la luna llena ───────────── ✦ Se lo llevara. ───────────── ✦ Que no te de pena !! :3
Books	soy un niño, atrapado en un adolescente sin suficiente libertad de expresión ───────────── ✦ I am a child, trapped in a teenager without enough freedom of expression ───────────── ✦ El me mintio y aun tuvo el descaro de seguir haciendolo, ¿Que cosas no? Y a pesar de sus mentiras me decia que me queria y que era la unica persona para el, eso causando de yo ser el culpable de acciones suyas
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The immensity of love I feel when I fall in love is so great that I put the people I love before myself. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ And I love that about me. Giving them my time and my attention just for them. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ But it disappoints me that I don’t love myself before loving someone else. I give them my love, my money, my handmade gifts, my letters that safeguard my heart. Only for them. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I give them my love in exchange for theirs. I don’t ask them to love me as intensely as I do; I want them to love me in the way they are able to. I don’t want to be just a journey for you. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I want you to stay with me forever so I can give you my whole heart, give you my big heart, and you give me yours in the way you know how to express it. I love intensely. I would love to have someone who loves me the same way. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ Without needing to be possessive or toxic, because I will always make it clear that my heart, my racing heartbeat, belongs to you. ⠀ ───────────── ✦ ───────────── ⠀ I am an adolescent searching for love, someone still learning how to love and how to love himself, someone new to expressing their feelings, someone feeling love after more than 8 years without feeling that great warmth in the heart—making it come back suddenly and painfully strong. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I am not talking about “them,” I am talking about him. I just don’t want to show it because I’m afraid of being rejected by the world and its criticism, afraid of being seen badly and shamed. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I feel this way because you are not here by my side, but if you were with me, I wouldn’t let go of your hand until you asked me to. I would take you everywhere just to make you happy. But do you feel the same way I do? ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ We are both men, but do you feel that fear? I want to try to take that fear away from you. ⠀ ───────────── ✦ ───────────── ⠀ You came back out of nowhere after a month. I was trying to forget you, you know? You came back and I loved you again. You were with me again. We didn’t talk, we didn’t play, there wasn’t even a “hello” that came from you. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ It hurt to see you, but I loved loving you again. I felt alone, you know? With no one to love… crying and looking for a way to talk to you, very long letters that I never wrote to you out of fear of losing you again. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ “You love through a game.” “Through an app?” “You’re just making excuses.” I know. No one has ever told me that, but every time I think about my actions, I feel judged that way. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ You appeared in my most vulnerable moment and made me feel loved. I felt like I existed for someone. And it hurts to know that I will never have a chance with you. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ Before, I spoke as if I knew how you felt about me, but I get attached quickly, you know. And I think you noticed that many times, which is why you told me you considered me your friend and something more. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I loved you intensely when you spoke to me that way. I am fragile, like a glass child, and I break easily. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ If you really did enter my profile, I wrote all of this in Spanish and then translated it into English so you could understand it better, because I felt the need for you to read it quickly and not have to take the time to translate my words. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I love speaking in the future rather than the present because the distance between you and me destroys me into pieces. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I want you to know that if you don’t feel the same way, I have tried more than a thousand times to get you out of my head, to try to forget you, but every time I see something, I think of you. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ It’s as if I were cursed with being unable to stop loving you. It’s something I won’t complain about right now because I am blinded by loving you with my whole heart. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ I don’t know if I am confessing myself or if I am pouring out my love here, on a website that I will probably never use again after this. ⠀ ༺══════════════════════༻ ⠀ Every day I write more and more, because every day I feel more emotions for you. ───────────── ✦ ───────────── You know, I’ve been dreaming about you lately. I feel more attached to you, and it’s because I like you so much. ༺══════════════════════༻ Every day I feel that emotion grow—not endlessly, but it grows every time I’m with you, every time I remember you, when I remember my moments with you, and when I see things that remind me of you. ༺══════════════════════༻ I can’t stop thinking about you, about what I could achieve with you, about giving you my entire life, showing you my love whenever I have the chance.. ༺══════════════════════༻ wiping away your tears… making you laugh, fulfilling your wishes, and being by your side when you reach your goals, congratulating you for everything and almost everything!! ༺══════════════════════༻Trying to make you feel as comfortable as possible when you’re with me. I want to make you feel loved, the way you made me feel when you were with me that DAY. ༺══════════════════════༻ ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Even if we are just friends or best friends, when we become strangers again or when we have little connection, I will always feel the same ༺══════════════════════༻ until the moment you give me a “No.” I know I won’t stop feeling this for a while because I will be in denial. If your wish is for me to leave you alone, I will do it, even if it hurts to accept it. ༺══════════════════════༻ But I suppose it will be for my own good to accept our destiny and not force you to have someone like this when you feel uncomfortable just by seeing a message. ༺══════════════════════༻ I would love for you to reply to my message—this message. But right now, I see that as something impossible, you know. ༺══════════════════════༻It’s uncomfortable to love with intensity, and I would like to know how you feel about it, if you would like to talk about it. ───────────── ✦ ───────────── You know, I love writing you new things every day, even knowing that you will probably never get to read this—unless I somehow get a chance and you help me make it happen, haha. ༺══════════════════════༻I long to be the person who brightens your days, who makes you laugh and feel loved, to be your beloved, your boyfriend, or at least someone special to you ༺══════════════════════༻—something more than a friend or best friend, to be your special person. ༺══════════════════════༻ Do you know how complicated it is for me to understand how you feel about me? Whether you feel comfortable or uncomfortable. ༺══════════════════════༻You never really give me the time to ask you, or it simply feels forced when you’re with us. I want an opportunity with you. Do you know how difficult it is for me to take a step like that?༺══════════════════════༻ I’ve told you before—I’m a shy person, someone who struggles to talk about themselves. ༺══════════════════════༻ But I’m writing this to you with my soul and my heart together. ───────────── ✦ ───────────── My eyes reached a brightness impossible to ignore. It sounds cheesy, but if I’m honest, you completely caught me by surprise. You know, the warmth in my heart, my flushed cheeks, my racing heartbeat, my nervousness—my hands were shaking so much I couldn’t even keep my mouse still, haha. ༺══════════════════════༻ It’s strange, you know? I never thought I would feel something like this, much less in the way it happened and in the place where it did.༺══════════════════════༻ Do you really feel the same? You know, I doubt it’s a no, but I care about you and I love you so much. Can I be by your side? ───────────── ✦ ───────────── I would like to talk to you, but with one hand holding yours and the other over my heart. ༺══════════════════════༻ I would love to listen to you talk about the things you like, to always remind you how much I care about you, to tell you many unexpected “I love yous,” and if you let me, to give you unexpected hugs. ༺══════════════════════༻ I would like to be by your side, you know? I know I’ve said it many times, but I want it so badly that I can’t stop thinking about it. ༺══════════════════════༻ I dreamed about you. I don’t have much to imagine, you know? I only have your personality, the way you are when you talk to me, and that’s something I liked a lot. ༺══════════════════════༻ I would like to make matching things with you, but haha… lately I’ve been saving very little, so I don’t really have much to give you as a gift from me :C. ༺══════════════════════༻ But does that matter right now? I want to know how you are, I want to know about you. ༺══════════════════════༻Um… I realized that because of the lack of knowledge I have of your language, I don’t express myself the way I truly am, and I’m sorry for that, hehe. ༺══════════════════════༻ I guess it’s not good of me to not ask you how you are when we’re together. I’ll do my best from now on. ───────────── ✦ ───────────── If I’m honest with you, I feel embarrassed talking about myself like this. Do you see me as too intense, or like I imagine too much when it comes to you? ༺══════════════════════༻ This feeling is very new to me; it’s been a long time since I felt something like this. You were the light in my bad days, and I thank you for that with my whole heart. ༺══════════════════════༻ I would like to give you all your wishes, to give you the moon if you wanted it, a star, or even the sun—but I’m not someone who focuses much on material things or idk what is that.༺══════════════════════༻ I just don’t know how else to express myself anymore. I don’t know if I feel too much, or if I’ve just been tired lately. ༺══════════════════════༻ I already started talking about myself lol well, um, I don’t like talking about myself when I feel the need to write about you, but anyway. I love you—more than you could even imagine. ───────────── ✦ ───────────── You know, something I’d really like to do with you is to play Minecraft together, haha. For some reason, I feel like I’d be able to be better with you there ༺══════════════════════༻ because I’d be seeing your actions. I don’t know, I just feel this desire to be able to see you and play with you, to have a house together and… well, I’d better stop, hehe I love u!! ───────────── ✦ ───────────── Probably my way of being isn’t that “wow.” In fact, I’ve never had someone like you before, you know? I didn’t think you’d stay despite everything, hehe. ༺══════════════════════༻You’re kind of like my everything. I’m taking the time to stop using a translator—well, um, not completely, because it’s hard for me to keep habits or I just don’t really try to make them habits—but somehow you matter a lot to me even though we haven’t shared that many moments. ༺══════════════════════༻ I really like drawing you. I couldn’t tell you that you turn out well because I don’t like painting, and if I’m honest, I didn’t feel like drawing at all and I was losing my style, my desire to keep doing something I like. ༺══════════════════════༻But if I’m direct, thanks to you—even if it doesn’t seem like it and even if you didn’t do anything on purpose—I went back to doing things I had stopped doing because I had no motivation. And thank you for being present!! ༺══════════════════════༻ I won’t lie to you, I’d like to spend more time with you, but without having to force you to come. I’d like to be with you because you come on your own, instead of me inviting you—but I don’t want to demand anything, you know? I like inviting you and having you take your beautiful time to come by for a bit :3 ༺══════════════════════༻ I’d love for you to understand me, but that might already be asking for something I don’t truly need.༺══════════════════════༻ Still, I would like to be able to message you more freely, send you a photo of something that happened to me while playing, or even have you do the same! ༺══════════════════════༻But I’ll just wait for that to happen someday, because I don’t want to ask you for too many things and make you feel uncomfortable. ༺══════════════════════༻ I want to know more about you. I want to get to know you better. I want to know your tastes, your favorite song, and be able to understand you in the games, series, or videos you like!! I don’t want to be—um, I don’t know.༺══════════════════════༻ I’ll just let you take all the time you want to tell me, because I’d rather you feel confident enough to say it than have me ask. I’d like you to feel trust—or whatever it is—when you’re with me, to make you feel comfortable and for you to feel like you’re okay there. ༺══════════════════════༻ Are you looking for the same thing as me? Or am I getting ahead of myself? I want to be something else—only if you’d like to let me be. ༺══════════════════════༻I can’t stop thinking about you; it’s something that feels inevitable. I love you so much!! Does it show a lot that I do? ───────────── ✦ ─────────────