ky ,,

general
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name: kaori
location: somewhere online
gender: dont worry about it
status: probably listening to music
orientation: fictional characters

i stay up too late and regret it every morning.
i take everything to heart even when i pretend i dont.
i type fast and overthink slower ;-;

warning:
i disappear sometimes but i always come back.

music
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music is like. my whole life tbh.
if im quiet its bc im listning to somthing important.
i get wayyy too attached to songs and refuse to move on.

bands i wont shut up abt
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my chemical romance (duh)
bring me the horizon (the old old stuff)
fall out boy b4 they changed everything
pierce the veil
sleeping with sirens

loud music fixes most things
how i listen to music
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headphones too loud for my own good
same song on repeet for hrs
laying on my bed stareing at the ceiling
convincing myself the lyrics r abt me ;-;

why it matters
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some songs feel like home.
some songs feel like geting my heart ripped out.
i like both and idk why x_x


currntly playing: somthing sad on repeet probly

movies
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i like movies that feel warm and sad at the same time.
the kind u watch at 1am and think abt for days after.
old movies >>> new ones most of the time tbh.

80's + 90's forever
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anything from the 80's or 90's has my heart.
weird lighting, synth music, bad hair, perfect vibes.
they just dont make them like that anymore ;-;

some favs (i cant choose):
the breakfast club
sixteen candles
pretty in pink
clueless
heathers
edward scissorhands
stand by me

born in the wrong decade probly
how i watch movies
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curled up in my bed
lights off, volume a lil too loud
rewinding my fav parts over n over
pretending im in the movie x_x

comfort vs pain
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some movies feel like a hug.
some feel like emotional damage.
i watch both dependin on my mood.


currntly thinking abt an 80's movie i watched months ago

television
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tv shows r kinda my comfort and my problem.
i get way too attatched and take things personal.
finishing a show feels like a breakup tbh ;-;

comfort shows
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stranger things (my whole heart sorry)
i think abt it daily and will never shut up.
80's vibes, found family, emotional damage.
i get way too defensive over the characters x_x

other shows i like alot:
the end of the f***ing world
skins (uk)
freaks and geeks
euphoria (sad girl hours)
anything that ruins me emotionally

one more episode turns into 5 somehow
how i watch
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binge watching at 2am
rewatching instead of starting new things
pausing to scream or cry
staring at the screen like this o_o

important note
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if u spoil shows for me i will never forgive u.
ever.


currntly rewatching somthing instead of sleeping

books
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i like books that feel quiet but hurt alot.
the kind u finish and just sit there like... oh.
i get attatched to fictional people way too easy ;-;

childhood + forever favs
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tuck everlasting (ruined me in the best way)
a wrinkle in time (confusing but magical)
books that made me think abt life way too early.

classics i actually love
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the great gatsby (sad rich people core)
the writing is pretty and everything is doomed.
green light haunts me fr x_x

born to read, forced to do homework
how i read
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late at night w a dim light
dog earing pages (dont judge me)
re-reading my fav parts over n over
pretending im in the book o_o

why i love books
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books feel like secrets.
they understand me better than most people.
i will defend my favs w my life.


currntly thinking abt a book i read yrs ago

oh wow where do i even start lol ;; i obvs love joe keery ;; he's like… my ultimate crush ;; ^_^ ;;

then theres coryxkenshin !! u kno he’s the king of funn and scary games XD ;; he makes me laugh soooo much ;; >_< ;;

markiplier is my inspo too ;;; the way he cares bout ppl omg ;; it melts my heart ;; :3 ;;

and ofc danny gonzalez lol i cant stop laughing at his vids ;; hes so weird but in the best way XD ;;

like… these ppl r my heroes ;; they make life not as lame ;; i hope i can meet them some day ;; maybe in a crazy dream ;; ^_^ ;;