jacksonnn

General

YAOI/BL, straight love stories rarely but sometimes they r cute, manhwa, manga, anime, fran bow, epic the musical, hamilton, omniscient readers viewpoint (novel), heartless – marrisa meyer, nature, drawing, my ocs, fnaf, creepypasta, vocaloid, danny gonzalez, clowns, the colors pink and white next to each other, will wood, brokeback mountain, listening to music, asmr, heavy rain, strong wind, storms, the hours between 5am-8am and 6pm-10pm, quiet alone mornings, the stars i can see from my window at night, my imaginary friends, the colours red and orange and yellow and blue and white and black and purple, red hair dye, taking pictures of the sky, being alone in my room, daydreaming, fantasizing, road trips where i can be alone in the backseat and lay down across the seats, driving on the beach, fruity alcohol, touching/combing my hair when its freshly washed, laying on my bed, those types of people that wear alot of rings/necklaces/earrings, fluffy blankets with prints on them, pretending/imagining i have a tail and animal ears, playing one song on repeat for hours/days, purring/barking when im alone, crawling around my room instead of walking, fluffy rugs, layered wall decor, the stuffed animal ive had since i was 2, when the sun is warm and bright enough that you can see little peeks of sun in the shadows of trees, pretty shaped clouds, i hate small talk, pretty curtains, animal bones, religious/christian imagery despite not being religious/christian, tapestries, rocks, colourful pretty seashells, i used to collect big sticks when i was younger, biting my nails, eating the skin on my fingers and lips, biting myself, i hate being touched, i like when people friend request me, layering a bunch of pillows and blankets on my bed, laying on my floor, singing when im alone in my room, stained glass, i used to collect my hair and nails before i threw it out the last time i cleaned my room, i love men that wear dresses/feminine clothing and lingerie and women that wear suits and boxers and construction clothes or the masculine version of uniforms instead of the sexualised female version, i like men that wear heels and makeup, i like bdsm porn, im very scared of spiders so ive been trying to get over my fear my killing small spiders i find in the house, i like pressing my nails into my gums because i like the pain and the taste of the blood, i miss when i had baby teeth because every time they got slightly loose i would yank and push on and twist them till i could rip them out, pepsi > coke, i like to sigh dramatically, i hate playing horror games because im a pussy but i like watching others play horror games, im an over-sharer (as u can probably tell if u read this far), i like when people read everything i say so if you've read this far then i love you, i like people that stalk my tiktok reposts/my profile, i like when people tell me that im their favourite person/closest friend/that they're obsessed with me, i dont use proper grammar when im typing fast but i hate when others dont use proper grammar, im a hypocrite sometimes (as u can tell from the last one), i like arrogant/cocky people that can back up why they are arrogant/cocky, i swoon easily, i like when people mention me when im not around, i like clingy people, i have bad paranoia lol, i hate people that play hard to get or try to be nonchalant for attention, if i dont respond then im either busy or dont know how to respond or have nothing to say or got too nervous to respond but then too much time passed and now its awkward to respond, i like self isolation, i hate when my parents drag me to counselling/therapy, if u frequently check my profile for updates or comment on my bulletins then i love you (yes i WILL remember ur user and get giddy when u comment, i alr do so for like 5 ppl), i like big animals (bears, lions, tigers, panthers, wolves, ect), i prefer to be around dogs irl but in terms of imagery i prefer cats but im also scared of cats irl cus i didnt grow up around any cats and didnt meet a cat irl till i was like 13 and they intimidate me and idk how to pet them and im scared theyll scratch me and they make me nervous but they are very cute and i like them, i hate ppl that friend me without looking at my profile to see if they fw me (YES, i DO count my friends count and profile view count >:| no i DO NOT have a life, what abt it?), i hate ppl that hate yappers, i like when men are pretty criers, i like men that cry/pant/whimper/whine/ect, im a tits AND ass kinda guy, i ADORE lanky thin dudes and chubby dudes and buff dudes and all dudes, i just like every kinda guy because their all hot, i like people that dont gatekeep their clothes (yes i hate when they ‘dont gatekeep’ but will say “idk where this was from, i thrifted it” LIKE CHECK THE TAG THEN!!), i like when people are good screamers, i hate people that tickle others because im very ticklish everywhere and it sucks, i like my neighbour's even though ive never met them because their porch light shines into my room and keeps it not pitch dark at night and its like always on, my “i drink glitter glue” stamp isnt ironic ive actually eaten glue intentionally probably more than 20 times atp, i never think before i speak/type i just let it come out and then regret it later, i like trees, im an open book and answer everything way too honestly and im a bit blunt (as u can tell from previous things in this section), i want to keep this section as honest as possible so i will NEVER delete anything i put in here and if i do i hope someone shoots me in the head with a double barrel shotgun because i WILL stay true to my word, if i ever delete anything then itll be deleting the ENTIRE section, im using the commas like ao3 tags lol, i think im a relatively boring person, my dream is to be god, the closest id get to being a literal god is probably a lawyer or smth so im aiming for getting a job in law :3, lowkey i wouldn't mind being a furry, if i could get my hands on a cool mask and cool ears and a cute tail then i wouldn't hesitate to be a furry lol, i like long bird feathers, i like when people like me, i like loud texters, i speak either too loud or too quiet and i cant seem to find the perfect volume, im a bit of a perv sorry, i got a fat crush on Bill Dickey and Pete DiNunzio (YES IVE ONLY SEEN THE PILOT AND NEVER READ IT, SUE ME 😒), i hate wearing bras and you'll never catch me in one, yes i DO walk around shirtless without a bra on when im home alone (peak freedom), i love watching ppl do archery because its sexy as fuck to me, my favourite season is autumn and i fucking hate summer because its way too hot, someone remind me to clean my room cus its getting messy again lwk, major procrastinator, i struggle with keeping a convo going, sometimes ill be talking and ill be like “ok im putting too much effort into talking” and ill just get quieter and quieter until im just mouthing words or whispering and then i just stop talking cus even that feels like too much in the moment, same with moving like ill procrastinate MOVING MY LIMBS lol, just sitting there like “i want to move” and my body literally wont for some reason lol, no motivation to the extreme, i love chicken burgers, currently in counselling for extreme social anxiety or whatever they said, BUT ONLINE IM VERY LOUD AND OPEN AHHAH, im very cool btw but that kinda makes me sound like a loser, i fucking love lettuce like ill eat a burger and its 82% lettuce, i love birds, specifically crows and ravens, no i know basically nothing about them but their cool as fuck, im a very picky eater, im lactose intolerant but ill put cheese on literally anything, CAMEMBERT CHEESE > BRIE– BRIE FUCKING SUCKS, i skinpick often, i hate bugs, i have 9 pillows but only really use 7 so more like i have 7 pillows, i love youtube, its my most used app daily by far, like rn as im typing this (4pm) my most used app is yt with 10 hours and second most used only has 2 and a half hours lol, ima be so fr i prob wont respond to u if u IM me w a “hii” or “HELLOOO” but if you IM me w something crazy or weird that noones said to me b4 then 82% chance ill respond 👍, i hate those people that are like “kindness is free” like ok? so is hating, i HATEEEEE ppl who think being nice will solve everything, sometimes v1ol3nc3 IS the answer, all of my problems would be solved by violence but yall aint ready for that, to make the world a better place (aka fit my ideal) then some people GOTTA d1e 🙏, i fantasise often about mUrd3r, we are all hypocrites deep down so idk why some purists hate on me for being honest that im a hypocrite, i fucking hate purity culture, you could be the kindest and most loving person ever and id still hate you if you didnt agree with my opinions, my opinions basically make up my whole personality lwk but ik those r ‘hard leftist’ so i mainly keep them to myself ✌️, i hate ppl that are like ‘im a leftist!’ and their most left opinions is to eat the rich and that equality should be the norm, like thats not leftist views thats just the basic middle, SOME PPLS BRAINS ARE SO ROTTED BY THE INTERNET RHAT THEY THINK EVERYONES EITHER ‘LEFTIST’ or ‘RIHGT WING’ LIKE NOOOOO MOST B1TCH3S ARE MIDDLE HROUND AND LWK U LIKELY ARE TOO!!!!, i hate straight people that are like ‘finally a straight ship’ in fandom spaces, LIKE THERES NO SHORTAGE OF STRAIGHTNESS JUST GO OUTSIDEEE, i want a bf or gf so bad rhat i crumble into sloppy mush at the slightest bit of affection and attention and its kinda pathetic, mb for the censorship in the last chunk i was tryna update my profile and it kept giving me that ‘forbidden word’ warning so i was tryna figure out what word wasnt allowed, i dont believe in human equality but not in a ‘racism’ or ‘sexism’ way but in a way where i think some people are genuinely evil and need to d1e or at least he t0rtur3d or something, bring back public execut1ons and de@th sentences, i wish someone in America would just k1ll those politicians already like come on, they go outside all the time!!! just go to a random event they go to and buy a g*n!!! they are big targets (fat) and always in the centre of something!! just shoot!!, if i was american i wouldve k1lled them by now, i love politics, death to the system, im not one of those ppl that think k1lling them will bring peace or something because the system is designed to keep repeating and revolution doesnt change anything but only resets the cycle temporarily so that they can profit more down the line, but what i think will fix things is likely never going to happen so im content with revolutions and stuff, i hate the words ‘grape’ and ‘unalive’ and ‘PDFile’ like just say the real fucking word, i hate censorship, i hate those ppl that are ‘anti-censorship’ and then be like ‘but we should get rid of ***’ like mf thats called censorship 😭, i hate ai, even those ppl that use C.ai, like just use ur imagination like the rest of us, i only like ai use when its purposefully feeding ai bad writing and shitty art to make it sloppy, or feeding it other ai to make it shittier, sometimes i get delusions where i either think im gods favourite (im agonistic ((i might also believe in Hellenism but idk, i always automatically think of Hellenism when i imagine whatever gods might exist)) not christian) or that i am god, i WILL be very very very very open and honest and very blunt on here because i have no other output for self expression and opinions lol, dont even get me STARTED on my opinions because i will YAP UR EAR OFF (as u can alr tell), if youve read this far then now you know more about me than my friends do!! hip hip horray!!!, i dont go to school rn cus i got expelled late-midish last year so thats why im online all the time lol, im actually not allowed back at school because my counsellor/therapist thinks i might be a danger to myself and/or others, idk they arent being very clear on which one it is and barely tell me anything :/, i hope they suffer because i seriously hate those guys, im not that great of a person and im self aware of the fact so i hate when some smartass is all like ‘youre so rude!’ ‘youre such a bad person!’ ‘youre so insensitive!’ like? ok?, if hell and heaven are real then i 110% have a very warm afterlife waiting for me, i am extremely ‘narcissistic’ and have pretty strong mood swings as well as ‘hereditary anger issues’, ive been told that i have a ‘god complex’, i like nerds and no not hot ppl w glasses, like ppl thatll talk for four hours on the lore of a video game and just when i think its done they go on to say theres actually 3 more games or smth and i feel genuine disgust and hatred (/endearing) at the thought that they will keep talking, i hate “i respect everyone!” mfs cus i do NOT, i WILL judge you based on ur beliefs and you can count on that (political, religious, economic, opinions, ect.), im sadistic, i currently am struggling with viewing people as people and not objects or toys or pets or whatever and id be lying if i said i was working on being better, keeping it real bcs im lwk never working on ‘being better’ because ‘better’ in my eyes is just conformity and id rather be murdered, i like weird or crazy or strange or mentally unwell type of people because i find people that are ‘normal’ or whatever to be incredibly boring, i date often but mainly for fun not love because i find it genuinely hard to build affection outside of obsession or admiration, i cringe and get second hand embarrassment very easily, i find ‘kins’ kind of cringe but if i had to pick some characters id ‘kin’ then probably ryo asuka - dmcb and light yagami - deathnote and idk ill add more to this lil bit if i feel like it but yeah shinji - neon genesis evangelion and asuka - neon genesis evangelion, basically for ryo i agreed with everything he did like if i was in his position id do allat too and if im being honest i stood up and cheered when that miki girl got her back stabbed because i hated her annoying positivity and high pitched voice and i like light because i agreed with his want to kill people (yes ik he likely killed innocents, but thats the price for getting rid of evil people) and i related to his want to be a god/ruler figure, lol haha rereading all the stuff ive put here so far i feel like one of those ‘heh… im edgy and different… no one will understand me 🥀🖤⛓️’ ppl, i cringe at myself alot cus i feel so corny when im honest like this but its also nice to know some people are reading this and relating or finding me cool, i get giggly and happy thinking about people realting to me or finding me cool lwk, ive been told i can be incredibly off-putting at times so sorry if this is weirding you out or cringing you out haha i dont really sense when im being off putting until someone tells me why, i dont often reread this so sorry for bad spelling mistakes i didnt catch while typing, since no one on here will be obsessed with me ima be honest that i love when ppl are obsessed with me, ive had irl and online experience with unhealthy obsessions directed towards me and i pretend like i hate it but i honestly fucking love it, ive had 4 ppl obsessed with me before and i love it soo much, i need someone to have a parasocial obsession with me again, i need constant reassurance via words and actions, i love when things are in alphabetical order, i love hearing ppl talk in Russian despite not understanding it because it sounds so nice, i like when sunlight shines on long grass in the morning and it has that little glow effect on your eyes cus you just woke up, ive always been curious on what eating human flesh feels like, i DO bite, my skin has grown stretchier on my left wrist because i bite it so frequently, i scream/shout alot, ive always wanted to be a cult leader or world leader, i would love to be a politician, if i was a billionaire i would probably use alot of money on assassinations, i prefer to talk to my mutuals via bulletins rather than IMs, if you send me an IM i will read it but will likely not respond, i get off on the idea of having admirers and worshippers, im aware that i can be pretty arrogant/cocky lol, im sad most of the time, sorry if ur reading this and like me and think ill talk like this/about this stuff cus i don't really talk like this in convos unless told i can, i like clingy people, i really like piercings and even though i don't have any currently id like to get some when im older, im pretty self centred, i get mad often when people i like mention other people, i like when im someones only friend, i have diagnosed depression and anxiety and insomnia, i don't take my pills, my texting style from farther down my general like around here and from my about me are pretty different because i consider emoticons and more energetic typing to be like my formal way of typing and this more blander style to be my casual way of typing lol, i am in fact getting more and more loose and casual as i type jere so that makes sense, i love the smell of fire smoke at night/sunset because its very nostalgic, i find gore enjoyers to be pretty cringe, i miss my groomers, but if i ever meet them again im blowing their brains out, i look pretty androgynous which im proud of (cus trans and i don't wanna look like a girl) but my tits always ruin it, if i chopped off my tits im pretty sure people would perceive me as a guy, i hate cheaters, i hate traffic, when im older i hope im rich so i can be in a poly relationship and pamper all of my fine shyts, i wish i owned a gun, i feel unsafe whenever im in my own house because paranoia so if i had a gun id always carry that around, i recently tried cranberry juice and its delicious, i tend to not be able to read the room and accidentally make ‘dark’ or ‘uncomfortable’ jokes because i lwk suck at making jokes, like one time my dad was talking about wanting a moving target for darts and i suggested we put the dartboard on our dog and if he gets scared and runs away its just better practice and no one laughed but i thought it was funny but it just got really awkward and my sister said “whats wrong with you?” like guys please im joking, im very awkward and suck at joke delivery's so that made it even worse, “ i'm not pro choice, i'm very much pro abortion. half of you should have your uterus ripped out with how delusional and entitled you are about deserving kids just for existing.” -random user, id be so much happier if i could shapeshift, if i could shapeshift all my problems would be fixed, i could be so pretty, and i could also kill people freely, ill add more when i think of more (-.-). current hyper-fixation: ranfren/randal's friends, alien stage

Music

no specific genre, just wtvrs good :3 my fav band is ‘feed me jack’ and has been for years, i actually picked my named from that band LOL

Movies

dont watch alot of movies 😓

Television

dont watch alot of tv 😓

Books

i mainly read manga/manhwa

Heroes

the idealised version of me inside my head. my fav artist however is @momoshouu on tiktok