Ziggy!

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- Climate Change Activism - Cats - Creativity - Going with where the flow takes me - Eebb and Floww - Spirals - Luna - Stars - I just really think that creativity is where the point of life is right now for me. - It just doesn't really make sense to follow anything else past a point. - Like there's a tight and loving community which is a great place to be, social justice, which is a great goal to have, and then creativity, a place to really run. Run like shit down your leg, or like a fish on a dock, or like a photon. - But just like, yeah, spirals. - Spirals are the shit. - They are the only thing I've ever felt have embodied me in any way coming close to my true reality. (like other than me) - Spirals don't stop - Spirals don't give a shit - Spirals keep going around and around like time - And I don't mean clocks time, I mean like TIME time. - Cycles. - Spirals represent cycles shifting but not ceasing - Orbit - Axel: that's movement, that's getting around, energy, stored energy just going and going and going. That's what the spiral is harnessed. - Music: Spiral - And I mean, what is more fundamental than time? - Space - And Spiral is a representation, a love letter, to time through the medium of space. - Cycles. That's the deepest truth about life that I've learned: Cycles are the root of our existence. - Life and Death - Ooohhh, life and death that's a powerful one. - Asleep awake, sad and happy, old and young, poor and rich, connected disconneted, - and now for some prose: - these dichotomies are cycles that, from where I stand, keep revolving. Across moments, lives, and generations, when you look for a pattern of cycles, they always pop up. That's because everything, on some scale, balances towards center, and it does it in a wobbly formation that looks like a spiral, or a wave (which is a 2-D spiral). - So let's work our way up to that with examples. - Asleep and Awake: When you are awake your brain accumulates sleep juices and when you are asleep your brain gets rid of them and wakes up. :Two Negative Feedback Loops: - Earth's Orbit: Sun yanks on our beautiful mother and she tugs back, and all the other mass in the universe has a say, too, causing a beautifully complicated infinite-body-problem, but simply put, Sun and Earth are locked into a cycle - Zooming out, the solar system is in a similar relationship with the center of our galazxy. - Our galazxy orbits a bunch of other galazxies in our galazxy cluster, and those guys... expand out into space? We don't really know the full story there, but I'm pretty sure there's a cycle involved there. - REPRODUCTION IS A CYCLE - I feel like cycles are so goddamn common because they are the only stable things. Conservation only gets you so fart because conditions change and adaptation is the way to stick around. - Spinning tops are stable, idk I guess that's something to do with a spiral and how spirals keep stuff spinning and balanced? (More research required) - And to those who say, "What about gravity?" because like it's a one-way trip for objects that fall, I say, "open your mind." As long as energy still exists, that stuff will probably get picked up again, at least by the explosion of the sun. - But you bring up an interesting point. What happens with the heat-death of the universe? - The reality is, we don't have enough information to know, we likely never will, and we probably can't impact it, so it doesn't really make sense to get all freaked out about it. - The rest of life is cycles. Beautiful cycles. - I enjoy doing minor things like eating and spending time with friends, and I even relish thinking deeply and moving with artisitc or academic flow states, but really what I always ___ (There are no adequate words for what is going on), is just what I actually do. What I am. Enter all descriptory words here, just to try and throw a little manifestation of the everythingness of my everything. I own that. I take responsibility for my experience and lack of experience and everyone else's experience because I am a part of it and... (It's not that it's "a miracle," or "amazing and beautiful," that we should "honor it because of that." It's not a good reason for me. It's not adequate: It's honestly small when I think of the massive rumbling I feel in my being when I think about thinking about the everythingness of everything. The grandeur, the smallness, the encompassment, the exclusion, the Red, the discomfort, the spirals, the SSSHHH. All of those and none of those are included and excluded and thrown through a window in everythingness, through all time, through no time, through left and right, through things I don't know about.) I take responsibility because (It's obvious!) I experience some of it. I feel it's rumbling and it's screeching and it's due date and it's birthday and it's run-on sentence. But I don't care, I'm in a groove. I- just like mmmMMMBBbing in the GRRAAgraAA is just pBWEE. And I guess I just get such a kick out of feeling life, but it frustrates me how that idea "getting a kick out of life" is so particular in the way that I don't want it to be. visual art, writing, theater, no expression can approximate GREEEE gRII. I can't express it externally, obviously. I can point at it, like I am now, but it's like pointing out at an image reflected through a million mirrors to someone who is maybe looking the other direction and is distracted and also can't see really well in my atmosphere and anyways, the image is incomprehensible in the first place. I can't really even experience it myself either. It's kinda dumb, I guess. - Anyways, I rave about spirals more than this ^ because they can be understood more, but this is really what I think is the meaning of life. I guess this explains why I like letting things happen as they are. My brain processed all of that ^ subconsciously and said in its nebulous way, "we don't need to really intervene to experience the "fullness" (stupid use of the word). "Fullness of life" is a capitalist lie. I guess I came to the conclusion that there's no point in worrying existentially (personally), and in fact, if that ain't happening, it ain't. And I guess I also got lucky and just have that personality and healthy upbringing to be chillin and have stable mental health. Maybe at some point, I'll freak the fuck out and say AAAAAAAA, and I can use this as a point of consolation. I hope I do. Hi! pull the youthfull energy from this piece to fuel your life juice. if you want. And also, don't if that's not what's happening. Because you've gotta die at some point. That's what I think right now. Could change. I guess I think I'm deluding myself somewhere in life, but basically I work with this assumption: It's all going okay, life just goes. (not how it's "supposed to," but how it does.) I guess my delusion is that that's okay. It's sometimes totally not, because I'm human and my brain is biased and doesn't like some things, so yeah idk I guess the implicit assumption that

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