Ryan 𒉭

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General	MY FAVORITE ANIME!!! I mentioned others before, but I didn't mention them all, okay? Komatsu Nana (Hachiko) Osaki Nana Ichinose Takumi Honjou Ren ✶･ﾟ⋆｡°⭒࿐ ✶･ﾟ⋆｡°⭒࿐
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Movies	I like pretty much all kinds of movies in general, I’m open to watching almost anything depending on the mood. But there are some that just stick with me more than others. I guess I’m more drawn to films that feel a bit deeper, more intense, or just have something mysterious about them, like they’re hiding meanings under the surface. Those kinds of movies feel more interesting to me, like they stay in my head after I’ve finished watching them. Even if I don’t fully understand everything right away, I still like thinking about them later, trying to piece things together or just feeling the atmosphere they leave behind. That said, I also enjoy simpler stuff too, things that are just fun or easy to watch without overthinking. It depends a lot on my mood honestly. I think Mysterious Skin is one of those movies that affected me in a different way. Maybe not exactly “fun” in the usual sense, but still powerful and memorable. It’s more serious and heavy, but it stays with you, like it leaves an impression that’s hard to ignore. So yeah, I guess I like a mix of everything, but I’m especially drawn to films that feel meaningful in some way, even if they’re strange, dark, or emotional.
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Books	Any kind of books, I don't have a favorite.
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HEYYY!! I've had other designs before, but I think this one will be the final one!!! My name is Ryan, or just call me Sam :p I LOVE FINAL FANTASY SO MUCH!! It's my favorite game besides DMC. I also like Mortal Kombat. I generally like a lot of video games, but those are my favorites :3 I also like watching anime, too many! My favorites are Berserk, Castlevania, and a few others. I also like DMC, hehe. I don't really know what I'm like in general. I say weird things and stuff. I'm allergic to cats, it's because of my mom, haha. I love cats but I just can't have one, so I opted for hamsters instead. *happy face* Doki Doki Literature Club! I love all kinds of video games. I've been playing since I was very little, because my father taught me to play on a machine we had there; it was really cool. I'm not easy to understand, and honestly, I don't try that hard to be... I'm one of those people who feel a lot but say very little. I can be silent and still have my head full of thoughts, as if I'm always somewhere else, in another story. My tastes basically give me away. I like intense things, things with weight, with a story... like Berserk, where everything is dark but you keep going because there's no other choice. I'm really drawn to complex characters, the ones who aren't "good" or "bad," just... real, like Sephiroth, Cloud Strife, or Dante. Each one has something broken, something strong, something that not everyone understands... and I think that's why I connect with them so much. I also have that more introspective side, like Punpun, as if I sometimes get lost in what I feel or think, but I'm still there. Aesthetics matter a lot to me, the vibe, what something conveys without saying it directly. Music, stories, even the way someone is... all of that has to make me feel something. If it's empty or superficial, it doesn't grab me. I might seem distant or cold, but I'm really just selective. Not just anyone can enter my world, not because I think I'm better than anyone else, but because I don't connect easily. But when someone does manage to get in, I'm real: loyal, intense, present. I don't know how to be half-hearted, neither in what I feel nor in what I give. Sometimes I get lost in my own thoughts, other times I feel like I understand too much. I'm at that strange point where I want to improve, change things, understand myself better… but without losing what makes me who I am. I'm not looking to be perfect; that's boring. I prefer to be real, even if that means being complicated. I won't always say what I feel, but that doesn't mean something isn't going on inside. There's much more than meets the eye. If you manage to understand my personality or my vibe… then you know I'm not someone who goes unnoticed. Lowkey, I'm someone who lives between worlds… one where everything seems normal, and another where everything has more meaning than it should. I easily get lost in my own tastes, but it's not a bad way of getting lost… it's like finding parts of myself in things like Final Fantasy VII, Devil May Cry 5, or even weirder vibes like Sally Face and Danganronpa. I like stories that have something broken but beautiful at the same time, like Berserk or things like Castlevania… I don't know, I feel like everything there is more honest, more raw, more real, even though it's fiction. I'm also kind of weird when I talk; I say nonsensical things sometimes or get lost in thoughts that only I understand, but I guess that's part of me too. I don't always know how to explain how I feel, but that doesn't mean I don't feel a lot. I like to create my own space, my own aesthetic, my own vibe… as if everything I like were pieces of something bigger that only I fully understand. I'm not for everyone, and that's okay. I prefer that to being generic. And although sometimes it may seem that I am in another world... if you really find me, you will realize that I feel everything twice as much as I appear. I can't explain myself perfectly, but if you stick around long enough, you'll understand something. I'm more about feeling than speaking, more about thinking than acting quickly. Sometimes I'm quiet, but inside, a thousand things are happening at once. My tastes aren't just "tastes," they're like parts of me. Everything I like has something in common: intensity, aesthetics, and something a little broken but real. I easily get lost in things like Final Fantasy VII, Devil May Cry 5, or stories like Berserk… because there, the characters don't pretend to be perfect; they just keep going as best they can. I also have that side that no one really understands, like Danganronpa vibes or Sally Face—kind of weird, kind of dark, but still interesting. Not everything about me is easy to read, and honestly, I don't mind. I like aesthetics, details, things that convey something without saying it directly. I can spend hours thinking about a song, a scene, or even a feeling. If something doesn't make me feel something, it doesn't stay with me. I'm not someone who trusts easily, nor do I open up to just anyone. But when I do, it's for real. I can't be superficial with the people I care about. Sometimes I don't even fully understand myself, but I keep working on it… changing, growing, trying not to lose what makes me who I am. I don't want to be perfect, I want to be real, even if that makes things complicated. If you ever come to understand my personality or my world, then you'll know I'm not your average person… and I don't want to be. Not everyone is born to be part of something… some are born to build their own world, even if it means walking alone for a long time. I'm not someone who settles easily. There's something in me that always wants more, to understand more, to feel more… as if staying still isn't an option. My tastes aren't random; they're reflections of that way of seeing everything. Stories like Berserk, Final Fantasy VII, or Devil May Cry 5 have something that goes beyond the superficial… ambition, pain, purpose. I'm drawn to characters who don't take the easy path, those who carry something inside and still move forward, even if no one understands them. Not because I want to be like them, but because I understand that feeling of not quite fitting in, of seeing the world differently. I also have that stranger, more chaotic side, like in Sally Face… where everything seems odd from the outside, but has its own order if you know how to see it. I'm not one to show everything I think or feel. There are things I prefer to keep to myself, not out of fear, but because not everyone deserves to understand them. I'm not looking for approval; I'm looking for something more real than that. I'm constantly changing, building who I am little by little, with everything I love, everything I feel, and everything I learn. I don't want to be just anyone... I want to be someone who leaves a mark, even if it's silently. And if you ever come to understand my way of seeing things... then you know it's not common. someone who understands silence more than words… someone who isn’t afraid of ambition, even if it consumes them.

Who I'd like to meet:

I don’t look for ordinary people. I’d like to meet someone with a dream strong enough to stand above everything… even if it means walking alone. someone who knows what they want, no matter the cost. not soft, not simple… just real. I don’t really know how to explain it properly, but I’ve always had this quiet wish inside me… like I’d love to meet so many famous people. Not just celebrities, but the creators behind the things that shaped my imagination — the minds that built entire worlds out of ink, pixels, and sound. Manga and anime creators who turned pain, beauty, and chaos into stories that feel alive. Video game developers who designed universes where you can lose yourself for hours, forgetting reality for a while. And of course, the famous characters too… the ones that feel more real than people sometimes. Like they’re not just fiction, but pieces of emotions we were never able to explain on our own. I think I’d also like to meet voice actors and face actors — the ones who give life to characters we cry over, admire, or grow attached to without even realizing it. There’s something kind of magical about that, how a human being can disappear into a role and make you feel something so deep. And singers too… the ones who turn feelings into music, like they’re translating emotions we don’t know how to say out loud. Some of them I would’ve really loved to meet, but they’re gone now… and it’s weird, because it still feels like they’re somewhere out there, frozen in what they left behind — in stories, songs, and memories that don’t really fade. I guess it’s not just about meeting “famous people”… it’s more like wanting to touch the sources of the worlds I escape into, even just once, to say thank you for everything they made me feel. Sometimes I find myself thinking about all those things people leave behind without realizing it. Small moments, words, ideas… things that seem simple but end up staying with you longer than you expect. It's curious how something can leave a mark on you without making a sound, almost as if it takes up residence inside you. I feel like there are many things I still don't fully understand, but I observe them silently nonetheless. As if I were watching the world from a slightly different perspective, trying to capture details that others overlook. I also think about how everything is constantly changing. People, places, even ourselves. Nothing stays exactly the same, even though sometimes we wish certain things could freeze in time. But it's impossible… everything keeps moving forward, even when we're not ready. And in the midst of all that, there's something strange but interesting: the feeling of growing without realizing it. Not in a clear or dramatic way, but slowly, almost invisibly. As if each day were leaving a small mark that you only notice much later. In the end, I think I'm just learning to observe more, to feel more, and to understand a little better everything that happens inside and outside of me. 1: 2: 3: 4: 5: 6: 7: 8: 9: