sam

About me:

I know what I will write is far from the “What about me?” category, but this is all I found important to write.

Hello everyone,

I have a topic that I want answers to and I'm comfortable talking about it openly. I've asked many times, and this situation keeps disappearing for a while and then coming back. A while ago, I saw a girl in a dream – a beautiful GIRL with short, black hair. She was holding a person who seemed to be dying, and there was a destroyed wall in front of them, as if there was a war in the background. Years have passed, but that dream feels like a real event that happened in my life, and it keeps flashing back to me in my daily life.

Recently, for months now, I’ve been waking up with a very real feeling, as if someone was sleeping next to me in bed that night, like something warm was sleeping with me. In the morning, I wake up with a very pleasant smell and my skin feels warm, not sweaty at all. If it stopped there, it would be fine, but the problem is that during that period, I started having flashbacks of that girl. I began seeing her a lot in real life, in the streets and alleys, and hearing her voice in my head all the time – not bad thoughts, but ideas and answers as if I'm looking for them. These thoughts make me convinced that they are always surprising me and coming to me better. There's a connection between her and my feelings. For example, sometimes when I feel anxious, that voice, which I don't know where it comes from, tries to calm me down and gives me solutions, as if I have known her for a long time. I also feel something from her side.

Additionally, I have developed a strange intense dislike for girls. Whenever I talk to someone and they mention girls, I feel like I want to throw up (I have no homosexual tendencies at all). I am a straight person.

It disappears as if it was just something I didn't understand, and then I live my life normally. But after a while, it comes back at night when I'm asleep again. It’s like a ghost in the form of that exact girl, and I feel a certain way and am convinced of it, but in the morning, I don't remember anything.

Brothers, I would appreciate any answer. Has anyone experienced something similar or gone through this kind of experience? Or is it just something normal caused by music or movies or something else? I want to note that I am not addicted to any kind of drugs.

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