Valentina ♡

About me:

The sun reflects vigorously on the facades on the other side of the street, wasting light and heat. It is early afternoon and my room will soon begin to be dark, a total shadow after having been denied the warm rays that my body so needs. Others do have them. Other houses are sunny, warm and bright. Not mine. I cannot avoid the comparison that places me, even more, in loneliness and helplessness. A ray of sunshine would comfort me right now. Would it make me change my mind? When the world collapses on you, everything contributes to it and the most insignificant circumstance has a forceful and decisive weight. Life just like my street, the heat for some, not for others. I don't want to continue, nothing moves me to do so. Tiredness has overcome me. My fight is over now. By making this resolution, I am able to be at peace. I'm not going to do anything else. I expect nothing. I know that nothing will come to save me like in that song...at the time of shipwreck and darkness someone will rescue you to keep walking. I have never achieved anything in life. Too long have I struggled without any reward. My efforts have always been useless. The sun's rays are for the chosen ones. It does not matter what you do. My projects have never fit into the great gears of the dynamics of the world. I have always been a piece used by others trying to find my own function, some achievement in my attempts. Life has seemed too hard and disappointing to me to want to repeat it, to want to continue. Now I only hope for a few last moments in peace, without seeking anything, without pursuing anything, just living in harmony with who I am and what surrounds me. No one is going to steal these moments from me. I'm alone and tired. But I have the satisfaction of being able to retire as I please. At this moment I am the owner of my universe, I am God. No one is going to intervene in my life other than myself. Where I go there is no suffering, restlessness or vain hopes, only nothingness. This is a splendid moment, full of intensity, the climax of a life. I decide everything.

Who I'd like to meet:

Tom Kaulitz owner of my uterus (Just kidding, ok)