Mentally_disturbed

General

I participate in fencing (as in the sport), I play drums, and I have a passion for music. I've stopped fighting my inner demons when it only caused me pain, we're on the same side now. I've tried and hurt for so long but I really 🎵can't drown my demons they know how to swim🎵 Autism (diagnosed) ADHD (undiagnosed) Dyslexia (undiagnosed) speaking of, some of this about me section is heavily edited but I might not have realised some things so don't pick on spelling or gramma but I did edit with chat GPT after but not all of it. 16 Australian I love gore and horror I say "Fuzzbuckets" casually and automatically I borrowed from Hisirdoux Casperan XIV in Wizards of Arcadia, it's equivalent to "oh no!" I use "Alternative" rather then "emo" bc, of the stereotypes associated with the word "emo." Alt rock vibes resonate with me, reflecting my perspective on how people often misunderstand this genre. I tend to use terms of endearment like Hun, Bud, Sweety, Love, Dear, and Hunny when I become close friends with someone. I consider them gender-neutral and use them platonically, like parent talking to their child. If any term makes you uncomfortable or you just don't like it, please let me know. I'm Pansexual I typically use she/her pronouns, but I'm pronoun indifferent. You are welcome to use any pronouns for me, and I'll be fine with whatever the fuck you choose. 100% support and stand with everyone in the LGBTQIA+ community If you tell me your pronouns, I will try to use your preferred pronouns correctly, otherwise I use they/them pronouns because I am trying to train myself to default to using they them pronouns however, if I happen to make a mistake with your pronouns, please remind me, and I will apologize and make an effort to do better. I want to become an invertebrate zoologist after high-school and university. If there is a fictional character, there's a good chance I'm simping for 'em, I can't even mention them all later. and BANANA. BANANA is really all you need to know. BANANA

Music

I have very eclectic music taste and like a lot of genres but my favourite band is MCR and my favourite song is famous last words by MCR I even did a school project on it.

Movies

Here's a list of movies and shows where I've formed fictional crushes because they are my favourite movies(there's a lot of characters between movies and shows that I simp for): -Encanto (Carlos, Camilo, and Dolores) -The whole collection of The Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit movies (Legolas, I memorised the inscription on the one ring in English and Black speech) -The D&D movie (Doric) -Nimona (Nimona) -I didn't know where to include this but Hamilton (Angelica Schuyler and John Laurens only played by the original NY cast tho)

Television

same rule as movies: -The Arcadia series (Eli and Hisirdoux) I'm not including the movie 'favourite movies' section because it fucking ruined the entire plot of the shows. fun fact: I thought Hisirdoux was an entitled, typical 'hot guy', full-of-himself, jerk until Wizards of Arcadia revealed he's nice, caring, sensitive side and gave him some personality. I can accurately say I love him for his personality (I love all of them for their personality but for him I have proof) -Hazbin Hotel (Alastor) -The Dragon Prince (Rayla) -Wednesday (Wednesday) -Supernatural academy (Jae) -She-Ra (Double-trouble and Entrapta) -Clone wars (or anything with Ahsoka so excited for Ahsoka) -Smallville (Lex Luther only Smallville him)

Books

Most of Enid Blyton's books. I don't like what she did in life. Her descendants are much better, they get the profits not her, and they donate a lot to charity. If you don't know what I'm talking about with Enid Blyton I recommend watching the video Rachal oats made about her on YT or another video (or podcast) on Enid if you are interested. I don't read much. I never read unless I absolutely had to until grade 5 when I found Enid's books, I don't know why but they were so much easier to read than other books. I could sit down and read them. It still took me 2 years to read all three books in the wishing chair collection. To be fair my processing speed Is 6% of my peers so it takes longer for information to get from point A to point B but you can't tell from the outside and it doesn't mean I am not smart. I have a high average IQ at 117. It was a proper test that I took in the process of getting my autism diagnosis when I was 15. I do read a lot of books on Wattpad so that's an exception to my "barley ever reading" rule.

Heroes

I mean. I have heroes I guess, but if no one is really saved does anyone have any? Life is meaningless and any impact anyone ever has will be erased because anyone ever impacted by your actions will die. Even if the effect carries through generations when the sun explodes it won't matter at all but "Happy all the time" by set it off is helpful in ignoring that. Music is my therapy and I literally wouldn't be living without it. It usually comes into play most when I loose all meaning in staying alive for family and friends.