ThePrototypeVer1

General

Send me a message if interested. Really am blank on what to say. But I'm a natural curious person. Sense people online label me as an insane and psychopathic person and that I've ''issues'' always ask me. What is wrong with you? Why do you act the way you do? Well sense this question pops up tons I had to explain myself. So I know you're probably like WTF? Why you posting this online? Well people keep asking me! That's why! So I finally want to make one final announcement that four years have passed since my mom was murdered. People tell me countless times that I should've moved on from now and I concluded I can't. Many people tell me I should go seek a therapist for a few years and that should make everything go away. You really can't really fully erase someone's thoughts about a dead relative. There are certain things that can trigger a memory of that said person. Smells. Clothing item. Shoe item. Perfume smell, Favorite flower etc. I've days where I'm not grieving and there are days where I remember things as yesterday. The thought never completely goes away. Just like bullying from high school which made me quit the memories and all the name calling I got called every single day of the week until arriving and the dismissal bell I remember everything and my dad tells me I should get over what happened to me in high school. I should erase everything that happened to me and move on. My dad has also told me I got issues because I don't want to wear a one piece bathing suit when my son wants to go swimming. I told him I feel more comfortable wearing a swimwear leggings which does exist and a rash guard top. In front of my own son. He told me I've issues over self confidence issues and he also won't buy me an automatic shaver because I've wrist problems but yes my dad just said I've issues over that and I'm not kidding. Just over a simple matter like that about my self confidence issues. He said things like man you got issues. Is what he said. But my dad is very of inconsiderate of my feelings. A funny fact about my dad he said the bible is the best book he eve read, I over heard a conversation from his friends. However how can I forget about the people that mimicked about my looks and the name calling and pointing fingers I remember that all. Yet my dad swears in his lord of savior he never did anything wrong to me. He has also gave me the best life he could possible in my teenage years. I remember my childhood trauma and I remember the trauma from my dead ex that the police shot because they couldn't get him to stop going crazy. I remember the sexual and physical abuse that was done to me and you expect me to act like nothing happened? You expect me to act like a normal functioning being and expect me to get over this? People say a past doesn't define a person and that he/she needs to move on. Not when the trauma that was dealt with caused you to psychological change into a different state of mind and being. I just can't wave my magic wand and go whalla! Nothing happened! The regret and the knowing of my reasoning is why my mother isn't here today. I can't forgive myself. The regret keeps coming back over and over again like a tidal wave. But everyone thinks because I hail Loki I live in some fantasy land and ''faking'' about what happened about my mom and I'm making this stuff all up. Sorry to say but even though I hail Loki. I'm not sadistic enough to make something up that's is something based off a fantasy for others to like me and flock to me what I'm trying to say is a fantasy land story that I made up in my head for people to flock over me. I'm just typing random shit. I've zero pure desire to make a fantasy fairy tale/sadistic fairy tale enough to make a heard of friends. I don't care and you've to be 100 percent deranged in the head to make something up like I did on my profile. What happened. Happened. Real story. I'm just stating a life history book about myself. So people can know what happened to me as a whole being. Just note there is some trauma that is unrepairable and the damage is set and done. Just note you should be able to spot someone that is faking attention vs someone that is trying to reach out to people letting them know why he or she is acting/behaving the way they do. So before you bluntly harass and bully someone and call them names. Maybe you should ask yourself a question. What has this person been through? What has happened in their life? There is always a cause and effect. So remind yourself to be kind to others before you start calling them extreme names. But why did I come back? I finally made a Tweet account for people that don't have the social media I used. Ever since I closed down slickik. I'm sure you get the app I'm talking about with the last three letters. However people need to be a little tad more friendlier of understanding someone with legit ''problems'' anyways if you're interested in knowing me and my story just ask thanks and a friendly reminder don't harass and make fun of me because I go underneath a harmless underground usernames like Wolf Mother or Wolf. There is zero reasons why you should say I've psychopathic and insane behavior over this you people seriously need to relax lol. You're going to call someone those names over spirituality. My underground names. Just voicing my life story for others to understand why I'm behaving the way I do and how my mind thinks? You think you should call someone those names over that? I think you guys need to chill and also need to understand what ''psychopathic and insane behavior is'' Because I know talking cryptic and in riddles and hailing Loki and being called Wolf Mother or Wolf isn't it and being spiritual isn't the ticket of being called those names lmao. Also send me a inbox on my Tweet.

Music

https://www.last.fm/user/HiSaysWilde and I recently made this and Pandora plays the same shit over and over XD and Last.fm membership is $3 with a better radio and Pandora is $5. I heard Last.fm app is unusable according to reviews and you've to have the soundtrack on your phone. But I'll gladly pay the $3 to skip as many songs as I want XD

Movies

I only like 5 movies ask what these plain jane movies are

Television

https://www.animefreak.tv/watch/kuroshitsuji-book-of-circus https://www.animefreak.tv/watch/trinity-blood https://www.animefreak.tv/watch/monster I really thought I needed a therapist after this anime. This is the only anime to psychology crack me. This anime is pretty fucked up in a sense of psychology attacking the viewer. I really had to stop watching half of the anime and come back to it because I felt mentally sick but this anime is a masterpiece https://www.animefreak.tv/watch/bakumatsu-kikansetsu-irohanihoheto https://www.animefreak.tv/watch/hakkenden-touhou-hakken-ibun Those are my top five I don't like every single anime that I've added to Watchllist I've not watched anime in over a year I kind of forgot anime existed and I was going to watch a few music anime but I like my top 5 anime for years and years https://www.animefreak.tv/user/profile/DreamsSpookJill/watchlist My favorite gay male to male anime XD https://www.animefreak.tv/watch/hitorijime-my-hero Gay merch like this https://www.etsy.com/listing/839182419/hitorijime-my-hero-holo-stickers-kousuke?ref=user_profile Well I should state there is Boy Love which isn't explicit content and Yaoi is https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=25024 this is about my video game wish and collection and also if you've any recommendations of your favorite YT let me know! Mainly interested in tech and video gaming and crafts!

Books

Some facts I never shared with my family. Well that's because all my family members are hard core Christians except my sister. But nobody will understand. I like the name Wolf or Mother Wolf. Because people in high school called me you got rat teeth! Also made chattering noises with their teeth and my name Tara is spelled A Rat backwards. I got called this 24/7. Every single day of high school. Until I mentally and psyche couldn't take high school anymore. I hate my real life name. I know Tara means Hill in Swedish or some shit like that. I'm not even Swedish. I wish my mother when she was alive would've picked the name Sarah for me as original. But she changed her mind because her friend was having a baby name Sarah so she put Tara instead. I wish I was Sarah. I wish people were a lot kinder of people to understand, that some people are legit suffering. Know their story. Doesn't hurt to treat people with an act of kindness until you legit know the person. Such a shame people make fun of people without even knowing them. Why wolves? Why you might ask? I think you need to look up what Wolf means in spirituality. Which being spiritual isn't a sign of psychopathy or insane behavior like some people make spirituality to be. Rest assured I'm anti furry and I've no furry costumes in a closet. You wouldn't catch me in one anyways. A hard pass!

Heroes

My young prince. If I'm a mother that isn't to hard to figure out isn't it? My core values as a whole being. So after deep thinking I figured you know my last selfie was 83 weeks ago. I think for now I'm going to post a selfie once a year so that way pictures of myself won't get so clogged up and you'll have to dive through years to find a selfie if I never posted one. What my followers don't know is I don't really understand the whole composition of selfies. What is the purpose? What is the point? I mean do I wake up everyday or throughout my daily day do I think. I must take a selfie today and upload it, No not really. In fact I never thought about a selfie till I looked at my feed and how far back one is. For a girl I really don't enjoy many things. Besides perfume and hair care and I guess trying to get health intake in my daily life? Well that's probably not a woman thing so disregard that. I do like shine and glitter etc. But do I really need to say what I like to collect here? If you can't tell what I like collecting on my profile you have problems LOL if you can't put two and two together. I also really don't like how I look and it's something that I was bullied 24/7 in high school and what ultimately made me quit. I'm not interested in writing a saga about myself. If any followers are interested in questions about ''ME'' my DMS is open and yes I SAID DMS for the system at the end. Selfies are really nothing. The only time a selfie matters if someone can capture the soul or spirit of a being. Which is extremely rare and difficult for an image to show a spirit or a person's soul through camera or emoting that through body language or eyes. I just don't care. Why can't people be obsessed with health? Including supplements in your diet if you don't get the intake you need like Vitamin A. Vitamin E. Fish Oil. Also just found out Collagen is really good for building up stomach lining tissue or a.ka. As I call the VOID which I had no idea ever and is really good for metabolism and energy transfusion from sugar. You can get a bottle under $8 at Walmart and 120 count. The company says take three but the milligrams are 1,000 per capsule being 92 pounds or 95 and only 5' even I don't need 3,000 mg per day. That's an overkill. Someone posted a review on Walmart aka Walnuts and said she took one a day and noticed results. She also stated it took a few months to see results. Well that's any supplement really. According to study supplements take 1-2 months + depending on the person's body to fully absorb into the system. So with this stated I will replace this when my Apple Cider is finished.  But I know my diet food wise really doesn't show that I want to eat healthy but when you're on a fixed budget of how much you can spend to eat every two weeks. You've to make do. To be honest. I think my diet can be ten times worse. I could be eating Ramen packets in a day with the seasoning packet then have a heart attack maybe or eat fried food all day. I think the moral of the story my followers need to know is I don't care about selfies. Most of the time I'm in my own fantasy land and my own la la la la land and my inner well being is more important than taking selfies everyday for a week or whatever have you. I wish I cared guys. But I don't! Also I might be moving to Twitter! But that depends on what my followers think! Feel free to DM me if you would like me to stay! If you guys want me to stay I just might post only on Twitter maybe....I might just post stuff only artist stuff related maybe on here. So the motto of this story is if I wanted to post this in one singular sentence and I've to explain myself in detail is. I don't care about selfies. I don't think about them. I'm more focus on my diet and what I'm putting in my body and also more focus on a well being the spirit/heart/soul/will/mind and you get the whole picture perfect.

Twitter

@moon_heretic

Snapchat

@beelzebubpants