niko!

General

i love murder drones & bungo stray dogs! 

i hate gojo hes so annoying help 

i like to draw nikolai (my husband) and play volleyball with some “friends” i have at school!! i also like late night drives, they’re rlly nice especially after a long day ;o

do i really have any real friends anymore? yeah, i was everyones friend, but was i their first choice? no. i lost what i thought to be the love of my life over something so small i couldnt realize it. even though i just started middle school, i plan to kill myself. he thinks im gaslighting but this is what i really feel. i can try to tell him this is true, but he will never believe me. he has other people. i will paint the skies pretty for him soon though. im so fucking dumb for getting attached to other people. everytime he left me, i always wind up chasing after him. i still want to love him, but his friends aren’t in favor of him being with me. i dont know what to do with my life anymore, especially the fact that im slowly starting to get more and more busy the older i get. im so stupid for crying over him and his friends because they have something i have always wanted: a real friendship. i miss everything so much, even though i was the one who sparked the conflict. its always my fault. i hate myself. 

Music

msi (fuck jimmy), ayesha, tyler, lemon demon, mitski, type o negative, will wood and the tapeworms, the neighborhood :]

Movies

i honestly dont know that many movies besides all of iron man i watched 

black panther was a good movie too

Television

my fav tv shows are the amazing world of gumball, percy jackson, murder drones, bungo stray dogs, a bit of the owl house c:

Books

just percy jackson- im still reading the series though

Heroes

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