ezra

General

im really into doing a bit of nothing. i like to crochet and i make jewelry sometimes. nothing professional but i could sell patterns n shit. i just dont feel like it. i was really into occultism for a bit but i just kinda stopped reading and studying. i plan to pick it back up. i stopped bc i stopped caring abt like education and spiritual development n allat. i like podcasts and sometimes audiobooks, mostly true crime and horror and something i somehow only found out about recently- splatterpunk. i used to read with my eyes like everyone else but i want to do other things while listening.

Music

ill be quick this time. i hope. currently feeling Avenged Sevenfold, Cannibal Corpse, Depeche Mode, and- hear me out- the Jack-O-Lanterns. havent heard of them? don't worry, few people have and they do Not like what theyve heard... and the real life lore (that i worked day and night to uncover) is just a bit rancid. stay safe out there, folks. anyway... i bounce around genres without paying attention to what they are or what the artists names are so.. make of that what you will. black metal, death metal, power harsh aggro noise tech electronics whatever the hell, *insert adjective here*-wave, etc... regrettable mention is Ghost. theyre very lovely but their stans... :( same w most thrash bands. whats w that.

Movies

The Outsiders. i know every 13 year old boys favorite but yknow what its been engraved on my brain. Hereditary. i mean... its Hereditary... its fun IT (2017) n IT Chapter 2. so fun so slay... patrick hockstetter is forever in my heart. unsurprisingly my fav losers are Beverly and Eddie. they get it. btw i havent seen the 1990 miniseries but i plan on it <3 Blade Runner, og and 2049. real. Star Wars. SPAAAAAACEEEEEE....... PHILOSOPHYYYyyy.... SPACE WIZARRRDSS,,, ive been verbally clobbered for using symbols from the Empire, First Order, Knights of Ren, and if not militaristic then otherwise dark sided philosophies... leave me alone man. you might catch me using the dark side of the Force as a comparison to whatever left hand path/no hand path drool im following at any given moment. Saw 1-3. im not counting the rest only because ive never seen them. :( Amanda Young could fix me. mentally im in the nerve gas house. Heathers. would you be surprised if i said JD is my fave from this? im sorry. "I can fix him" not me. i will make him worse. Human Centipede 2. idk i watched this one as a kid and thought it was funny. the concept of the sequel being about a guy who watched the first one and decided to recreate it is cutesy slay. i also thought it was fucking hilarious when the pregnant lady shot her baby out in the car and squashed it like a stress ball into the gas pedal. like hello??? excuse me???

Television

The Walking Dead. ive been watching since i was probably too young to be watching it, but whatever. always been pissed about Glenn, but i cant help but love Negan. they did Carl soooo dirty smh. Shane wouldve been great if he wasnt so... not great. iykyk Stranger Things. predictably, i love Eddie Munson. hes just a regular ass guy n he gets shit for it. thats not all i relate to, i used to be sort of a reconstructionist 80's thrash metalhead, so i felt a bit connected with him. the internet people act like hes the devil himself, which kinda proves the entire point the writers are trying to make. hes not a fuckin narco, hes a 20 y.o in high school that sells weed and trip sits sometimes. in 1980s rural Indiana. woOOOoooOOo spooky. ...also hes totally autistic. gang gang. let it be known i also love Max and El and Robin<3. i want to dig up Maxs dumbass brother n kill him again. Dark Tourist. do regular vacation spots bore you? try a JFK assassination tour, or a gay bar in Milwaukee. one day ill go on my own dark tourism adventures. i already have them semi planned out. Breaking Bad. i used to watch it when i was in middle school, but i stopped for some reason. picked it back up recently. its probably not surprising that i like Jesse Pinkman. i dont get all the Skylar hate tbh. Impractical Jokers. sal is love sal is life. ive only seen the seasons that used to be on netflix 3 shows that ive not actually seen a full episode of, but watch through YouTube clips: Ink Master, Hotel Hell, Kitchen Nightmares, the other seasons of Impractical Jokers

Books

The Outsiders... i have a copy that i annotated and shit. i dont know, i dont have many friends (clearly), i actually only have one, so ive always been into stories of comradery and tight knit groups that actually give a shit about each other. yes camaraderie and comradery are both counted as the correct spelling by webster. The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls. i forgot to count Emilie Autumn in my music section, but i guess thats because the fixation kinda faded. still love her music obvs. i do look forward to the musical adaption... it has been in the works for a while so a lot of people forgot about it, but i never did. Knuckle Supper. bruh...... vampire drug gangs???? purr The Slob. listened to the audiobook last night and it was kind of a serve tbh.

Heroes

the crushing despair of the abyss