Chiasm

About me:

This writhing, wretched part of me
Gruesome, slithering, infinite -- get it out!
I am left with a gaping hole in my chest where my lungs were but I feel no different
from a saturday afternoon when i was 17.
This dormant abomination that I have created
I scream for an audience I do not wish to have
But simultaneously desperate for an open ear,
I am crying for you, for someone, to come
and free me from these self-imposed shackles

I don't have any idea who I am. I'm 19!

I like Black Metal, especially DSBM. I speak German through my family. I live in the USA. I have a job.

It's hard for me to articulate who I am. I am super wordy though, I love to yap, and anyone who talks to me will find that out the hard way! I care about people, and enjoy helping others-- I want to pursue a career in psychology-- but I'm also tired of always being the one others go to for help and not being able to express myself freely.
I have undyed, uncut hair. Rarely wear makeup beyond concealer and mascara. However, I love body mods, tattoos, unnatural hair & makeup, alternative fashion, graffiti, and more. I don't take substances but love to learn about psychedelics. etc. You know the type.
Oh, and I do freelance illustration

Who I'd like to meet:

I won't accept requests from anyone under the age of 18
BM/DSBM projects or other musicians welcome and encouraged!